I Admire Blacks for Their Intellectual Honesty, No BS Thinking, and Telling It Like It Is

PB: Poles stayed in Detroit. Most Whites left, as Trash said. Can’t be easy to “save” there.

Some Poles are still in Detroit, right? Detroit’s like ~90% Black. I hate to say it, but let this be a warning sign. Any good-sized city in the US that gets to ~90% Black, well, I’m not optimistic about that place to put it mildly.

Even Blacks don’t want to live with Blacks, believe it or not. I mean they don’t mind living with their own kind, but they do not want to live in majority-Black places. When asked what sort of racial environment they prefer, most Blacks checked “diverse.” That would mean Blacks, Whites, Hispanics, Asians and maybe Indians, etc.

I’ll say one thing for Black people. They aren’t stupid in some very important ways. Black people are very good at “adaptive” thinking.

They have a knack for cutting to the chase and getting right down to basics, screw all the emo BS. In the above case, instead of using emo thinking and thinking and saying they want to live in majority Black places, they’ve figured out with intellectual honesty that those places are are often not real great.

Not great for non-Blacks, sure, but also very much not great for Black people either. And a “diverse” community is indeed probably one of the better places for a Black person to reside. Good on them for figuring that out instead of retreating into lame emotional thinking that’s bad for their best interests.

Blacks look out for their best interests politically better than any other race. There’s no reason at all that ~90% of Blacks should not vote Democrat. Blacks are adaptive and intellectually honest enough to figure out that the White Republican Party is not their friend.

Jews Sure Have a Way with Words If You Can Catch Them When They Are Honest

SHI: In Poland, Jews are still scared walking down the streets. Except in the capital Warsaw, they will not be seen wearing the Yarmulke. Most Jewish visitors travel to Auschwitz but after saying their Kaddish, they quickly leave the country.

Hardly any kosher restaurants there. the Poles use pork in each and every dish to keep out Jews as well as Muslims. I know it’s their country but I find them the most pathetic, tiny-weeny losers.

Pathetic, tiny weenie losers? Ha ha. I tend to just call them smalldicks. All one word, too.

Unfortunately, I find that so sad. There are some Jews living in Poland now, maybe 5,000? Maybe a few more. There are ~300,000 Jews living in Germany nowadays! I find that amazing. And a lot of Germans really kiss their asses. These Germans feel a lot of guilt about the Holocaust so they try to compensate for it by being extra nice to Jews. I honestly feel that they go overboard, but I appreciate the moral sentiment.

Yitzak Shamir, former Prime Minister of Israel, said:

Poles learn their antisemitism at their mother’s breast.

He also said about the USSR, at least in Lenin and Stalin’s time:

The USSR was not antisemitic at all. In fact, it was the opposite. It was anti-antisemitic.

I’m not wild about any Israeli Prime Minister, but some of them really had a way with words.

Ehud Barak did too. Asked what he would do if he were a Palestinian, he said:

Well, to be completely honest, I think I would probably join one the terrorist groups.

Jews sure have a way with words. As a writer, I really admire that about them. Some of our finest fiction writers and poets were Jews, and they were pretty damned honest. But then they were not writing about politics or Jewish BS. That’s the stuff that gets them headed down the Emo Trail.

And all three of those comments were breathtakingly honest. Jews don’t lie all the time, you know. And when Jews are honest, sometimes they can sum up a morally complicated issue so perfectly, in only a sentence or two. It’s too bad they’re not honest more often.

I also admire their intellect. I’m an intellectual and Jews are the ultimate intellectual race. If you can get them outside of their damned overweening emotions for once, they can be fascinating conversational partners. Measured, learned, painfully honest, willing to make fine distinctions. Trick is getting them away from that emo fog they spend most of their time in.

Also, Jews are rebels. LOL the Jews are always rebelling. Always rebelling and always getting their asses beat. Sad but I dig the spirit.

Good People Often Grow on People. With Bad People, It’s Often the Opposite

What sort of a person are you? What sort of a race do you belong to?

Let’s find out.

One clue to what sort of a person you are or group you are part of is whether you grow on people or not. If people like you just fine when they’ve never met you but grow to dislike you more and more the longer they’ve been around you, that’s not a real great sign. Honestly, it implies that there’s something wrong with you.

A lot of basically normal people are quite disliked on first impression, but people who get to know them very well often like them a whole lot. This is called growing on people. I am very sad to report that Blacks often don’t grow well on people either.

I know a best friend of my mother’s had no racist feelings at all until she got involved in the school system and started having intensive experience being around Black kids. The more she was around them, the more racist she seemed to get.

I was sort of the same way. I had no feelings like that at all before I started teaching. After teaching Blacks off and on for six years, I used to joke that I was ready to join the KKK. Of course that’s not true at all. I didn’t even really hate Blacks after six years. It was more like I was Black-wise and somewhat dubious and wary of this race of people. But you get the picture.

First of all, a lot of Blacks don’t grow worse the longer you know them. The race in general tends to but a lot of Black people are just fine when you first meet them, and if anything you like them  better the longer you know them. That was the case with the Blacks I worked with in the schools. You either liked them at first or they grew on you. Actually most of them were quite likeable on first impression.

Black people seem to like me for some reason. Perhaps it’s because I don’t really hate them. I’m pretty nice to them, and Black people, the well-behaved ones especially, tend to be a warm, happy, friendly, extroverted, good time and party-loving race.

I feel sorry for Blacks that they don’t grow on people. But I suppose the ball’s in their court. They can always change and that’s how to end the cycle. How soon do they need to change? Tomorrow? Try again. Not even now. How bout yesterday?

It’s the same with Jews. It’s often the case that people who dislike Jews have had very extensive experience with them, and people who think they’re the greatest thing since radial tires have barely met one. I feel sorry for them too.

I grow on people but it’s a painful process. A lot of people who don’t know me well act like they hate me or are at least rather cold and unfriendly, but many of the people who really like me have known me for years and think I’m great. That’s because they’ve figured out what I am really like. The haters presumably don’t understand me very well.

At any rate the impression I make on people who barely know me and on people who know me very well is very different, and that demands an explanation.

Bad people don’t grow on people. It’s the opposite.

Life Is a Shit Test

Boy, I am really on a run with these meaning of life posts, aren’t I? Well, they say the peak of human wisdom is in one’s 60’s. It’s odd that we get less wise as we get beyond 70, but perhaps we are starting to fall apart, and this mandates a whole new set of defenses and lies to oneself. And when you’re lying to yourself all the time (or at least too much of the time), it’s a bit hard to be wise. Wisdom and pathological lying don’t tend to go together.

So no wonder I am plugging into all this meaning of life stuff. I’m stuck right here in the damned age of wisdom.

Just call me sensei, motherfuckers!

I just pointed out that life is a conspiracy theory, at least to some extent.

Well, after that revelation hit me, another flash of God-given epiphany was on its way. After all, one epiphany tends to lead to another, no?

If life is a conspiracy theory, then a corrolary of that must also be true, and that is:

Life is a shit test.

Think about it. Maybe not as a kid. High school’s a shit test for sure, and so is junior high in particular.

Hell, junior high is probably the worst shit test of most of our lives. If you make it through junior high halfway sane and undamaged, thank your lucky stars.

I run into grown adults on a regular basis who are still damaged from childhood. Not from early childhood, and not so much from high school. Yeah, from junior high. Grown men and women in their 20’s and 30’s still seriously damaged from damned junior high of all things! The typical symptom is low self-esteem.

After high school and on to university, oh God, of course that’s a shit test. And venturing out into the cold cruel world of work and survival is the ultimate shit test of them all, probably worse than junior high. After all, your very survival is at stake now. In junior high, you may get killed verbally, psychologically, and spiritually, but most of us tend to survive puberty with at least our physical bodies intact, albeit maybe with a few bruises from getting pummeled by bullies.

Put this idea in your head and walk around with it and see if life makes more sense. Wake up in the morning and look up and the ceiling and say, “Ok, today is another day of the endless shit test called life. Pray I make it through yet another one to the end.”

If this doesn’t resonate with you right away, chew on this idea for a while and see if it makes more sense. You might just find that it fits real nice, hand in glove nice:

Life is a shit test.

Life Is a Conspiracy Theory

Now that I am making meaning of life posts, I thought I would toss this one out there. I’m not sure if it has always been this way, but the only way to analyze much of modern life is via the lens of conspiracy theory. But before you go down that rabbit hole, beware. Much conspiracy theory is out and out absurdity and nonsense, and much of the rest is just wrong. But of the remainder – oh yeah, it definitely seems to be correct.

The explanations of the world, foreign policy in particular, we are given by our government and news media are mostly fake news and propaganda. In order to search for the truth is this disgusting blizzard of lies and bullshit, one must employ conspiracy theory because a lot of the facts of modern life are only explainable for conspiracy theory.

As I’ve gotten deeper and deeper into this explanation of modern life, fake news, and media propaganda, I’ve started to wonder what exactly conspiracy theory encompasses.

For instance, we are now into an era where false flags, fake attacks, and provocations are simply normal. I’m not sure if they’ve always been normal, but it seemed that in the past we didn’t do this as much, but in the last 20 years, it’s been one US-sponsored false flag, fake attack, or provocation after another.

Perhaps this is a symptom of a fading empire lashing out in a wild hail of lies, theft, and cheating. After all, lying, cheating, and stealing is not only the way humans do business and politics, but it’s also part of the toolkit of the desperate man. How many film noir movies do you have to watch to figure that out?

When a man is at the end of his rope, he’s thinking of survival, not getting murdered, staying out of prison, keeping his job, whatever. And all morality tends to go right out the window when faced with avoiding alternatives like that. You can hardly blame a man. But just as a desperate man must be looked at with suspicion, the state equivalent of a desperate man – a fading empire – requires an extremely dubious eye, to say the least.

Anyway, as I chewed this over more and more, I started realizing how deep conspiracy theory seemed to pervade so many things. You would think that the world of business would be immune to this, but you will never see so many devious conspiracies and blizzards of lying, cheating, and stealing as you will see in the world of business and especially corporations.

I am not entirely sure if conspiracy theory pervades human relations that much, but on the other hand, once you figure out that a lot of what  people say and do means something quite a bit different from what they literally say and do, even that starts to make sense.

Human relations are soaked into subterfuge, lying, defenses, and hidden meanings. I spend a good part of my time trying to figure out the hidden meanings in the behavior of my fellow men. I often have to run it by others. Of course, a world where many literal (think “official”) meanings are false and hidden meanings are often true is conspiracy theory in a nutshell.

At some point it hit me. Oh, the Hell with it!

Life itself is a damned conspiracy theory. 

Not completely of course, but enough of it is that this odd aphorism makes sense a lot of the time. Put that idea in your head “life is a conspiracy theory” and go about your daily life. Notice how so many things start making a Hell of a lot more sense when you are plugged into that horrible key to the universe.

At the very least, let’s face it, it’s a damned devious conspiracy to kill us all off when none of either agreed to that fate or wants to die.

In that way, death is the ultimate conspiracy theory.

Death is the last, best practical joke God will ever play on your life.

Alt Left: Tammy Wynette, “Stand by Your Man”

Tammy Wynette, “Stand by Your Man,” from 1968! One of the greatest country songs ever written!

Lyrics, simple but just perfect:

Sometimes it’s hard to be a woman
Giving all your love to just one man
You’ll have bad times
And he’ll have good times
Doin’ things that you don’t understand
But if you love him you’ll forgive him
Even though he’s hard to understand
And if you love him oh be proud of him
‘Cause after all he’s just a man

Stand by your man
Give him two arms to cling to
And something warm to come to
When nights are cold and lonely

Stand by your man
And show the world you love him
Keep giving all the love you can
Stand by your man

Stand by your man
And show the world you love him
Keep giving all the love you can
Stand by your man

Tammy Wynette,  “Stand by Your Man” Live. A bit later in her career.

She wasn’t very famous before this, but after this, she was a superstar.

Tammy once said:

I spent 15 minutes writing this song and an entire lifetime defending it.

Exactly.

And isn’t that why this song is just so great?

In 2010, this song was selected by the Library of Congress to add to the National Recording Registry, for songs that “culturally, historically, or aesthetically significant.” In other words, that Registry is for the greatest songs ever written in America!

The Alt Left officially endorses this song, by the way. After all, we are the “Conservative Left” – liberals and Leftists who are at least somewhat conservative on social issues. I’m sure feminists hate the idea of this song, but they can go pound sand! I never knew how great this song was before.

Like most Leftists, I hated this song because it was anti-feminist and oppressed women and all that crap. It was a song for Republican social conservatives. Except it’s not and it wasn’t.

But that was before I had a few girlfriends who actually, literally, stood by their man, meaning me, that is. One was Jewish! Would you expect a Jewish woman to do that? Well, who knows?

The feeling of having a woman who will stand by your side through thick and thin and especially to live her life through yours is one of the greatest highs a man can experience in this life. Better than sex. Better than love. Well, it’s love with an extra helping of chocolate syrup on top, let’s put it that way. But what a syrup that is!

The strange thing is that a woman who truly loves you actually wants to be like this. She wants to stand by her man. She wants to live her life through you. She wants to be dead jealous of you.

I had one girlfriend who was so jealous of me that she used to say, “I will cut a bitch! No woman is getting near my man!” Stand by your man!

She told me she had a tattoo on her ankle, and I told her I didn’t like tattoos. She immediately resolved to remove the tattoo! If my man wants my tattoo off, it’s coming off! Stand by your man!

Hey, I like that! She wants to dress you in the morning, pick your clothes and cologne, watch you shave, iron your shirts, and listen intently to how your day went when you come home. Stand by your man!

I think most of you men on here really do want a “stand by your man” woman. Trust me, there’s no better kind.

This must be a deep-rooted need in women, in tandem with femininity, submission, a need to be dominated, ferocious jealousy in keeping other women away from her prized man. It’s got to be genetic.

If you have ever seen a woman dissolve into femininity (often because she is madly in love with you or very turned on by you sexually) you will see that she seems to melt in place right there. You can tell that she’s in her special place; she’s hitting her sweet spot. Deep down inside, this is where most women truly long to be.

Feminism is a lie. It tells women that femininity is evil and oppressive. Like Hell it is. It’s the life blood of womankind. Take it away and they go nuts. Look at modern women. Look at how nuts they are. They’re having their femininity taken away from them. Of course they’re going nuts. How else would they act? They think this is what they want because feminism lied to them and told them that and believed and fell for it. Of course it was a lie.

Once again, the Cultural Left goes to bat against Nature and the weight of 200,000 years. And once again, Mother Nature on the mound mows down another row of the Left’s pathetic pinch-hitters.

Mother Nature 200,000,  Cultural Left 0.

He Wanted a Twin, Or Worse, a Reflection in the Mirror

My mother and father went to UCLA. My Mom for a mere year, my father til graduation. And came back later for a Masters in Counseling, after which he set about for the entire time I knew him demonstrating that he had learned almost nothing from those pounding years of hard core psychology classes. And the books in the world can’t penetrate a brick wall in the head.

I was supposed to go to UCLA, but I was as huge disappointment. I couldn’t pass Algebra 2, even with this Grade-A IQ of mine. Disappointment all around.

Why was I supposed to go there? He went there. What was I supposed to major in? History? Why? That’s what he majored in! What was I supposed to do afterwards? Teach school. Why? That’s what he did! Starting to get the picture? He didn’t want a son. He wanted a junior twin. Worse, an exact replica cutout from the mirror, 35 years too late.

Why do parents do this shameless bullshit? Yeah, I resented it. I’m not your toy or your reflection in the mirror, pal! I’m actually a real human being, separate from you. You know, a separate person, with my very own thoughts, feelings, desires, values, girlfriends, orgasms, bong hits, parties to go to, you name it, guy. I think people like that have an Object Relations problem. A lot of people have this.

Borderlines are notorious. The Borderline cannot see you as an individual person with your own feelings, thoughts, desires, sleep patterns, favorite foods, quirks and gifts, home runs and strikeouts. A lot of personality disorders share this.

This is one of the most important lessons you can learn in life – that others are completely separate from you. It’s painful in a way because we really want others, especially those we love, to be a part of us in a sense – to agree and disagree with us on everything, but it just doesn’t work that way, and thank God for that.

To Know Thine Own Self Is the Rule

To know thine own is the rule – always know yourself. This is an ancient Greek aphorism, but it may be one of the most important lessons one ever learns about this journey called life. But how many of us ever get there?

SHI: I’d rather have you as a strutting narcissist than a wannabe Incel.

I’m still a strutting narcissist, no wait, someone with high self-esteem. I’m not a wannabe incel. Why would anyone want to be an incel? That would be a volcel anyway. I get the incels though, I get it. All of us men are incel at various times anyway or at least most of us are. Especially bachelor life is notoriously feast or famine.

I’ve been on both sides of this thing, from Alpha all the way down to Omega (which is about where I am nowadays lol), and I can see the whole sexual landscape from here. So it gives you a very nice perspective having seen the whole map and hiked all of the land yourself. Your understand the terrain a lot better.

SHI: Fuck them, you’re not what they are. Don’t have to internalize their problems as your own.

No, they are mostly correct, at least on those things. I have thought about it forever, and yep, they’ve got it down. But really I have known all these things about myself on some level or other for forever now. I know myself pretty well. It’s just that I hide the bad parts of me from myself most of the time because I don’t want to think about that stuff.

You don’t like that I went over the bad parts of me. Hey, that’s ok. But I embrace all of myself, pretty much, and those parts that I think are bad and I want to change I work on all the time. There are other supposedly bad parts of myself that I don’t feel like changing because they’re too much fun.

You are into total self-confidence and always thinking of yourself positively. You don’t want to think negative things about yourself because you think that messes up your Game. Actually it doesn’t if you integrate them well into your psyche and you get ok with your flaws.

I am beyond the age where I need false optimism and denial of my bad side anymore. I wish to know my whole self, good and bad, right and wrong. And I hope to accept it, well, most of it anyway. That way I am a whole person.

SHI: I can understand that you might be having a bit of bad luck phase. It happens to everyone but it’s never forever.

That’s not really true. I’m afraid that this is just the way it is at this age of life. It’s not a real great age, I have to tell you, folks. I mean I like myself just fine still, but apparently that view isn’t widely shared.

I don’t get along with women much at all these days. They pretty much treat me like crap. The young ones almost all do, and a lot of the older ones are not real nice either, or they’ve given up on men altogether. It’s all part of the age and sex dynamic. I guess men my age are simply not very well-liked by women. The best I could hope for would probably be a woman my age. Some of them still like me.

*****

The women who loved me also said many wonderful things about me. The critiques in the other post are some of the things that they told me about myself, some of which shocked me because I didn’t realize I was that way. All of the things I’ve listed were valid judgements at least at the time they were made. I left the BS judgements out.  There have always been some of those from different women.

At different times of my life, girlfriends have criticized other parts of me or more properly ways that I was behaving at that time. I was in a huge rut for a while there, and I am afraid they were correct. But I’ve moved beyond those dark moods of my early adulthood. My 20’s were wild, but they were also rocky. I didn’t list those critiques in my post because I’m not like that anymore, though unfortunately I was like that at the time.

Hollywood and Las Vegas: Two Fun but Cruel Towns

Polar Bear: As far as Hollywood as a gay mecca, Eyes Wide Shut is the closest most will see of it, but there are always VIP orgy gatherings. Kat Williams, Richard Nixon, and others have walked into some gay shit. Spirit cooking parties, Bohemian Grove, etc. are on record. I don’t believe they’re all gay, but gay sex is part of the rituals.

The music industry is highly involved in this stuff too. Check out Celine Dion promoting transgender baby clothes.

Any A-list star with long lasting fame has done some rituals. Don’t do the ritual? Go make low budget movies. If you don’t play ball, you’re a one-hit wonder or an underground artist.

I am afraid that Polar Bear is onto something here. I was around that place for many years. Hell, I practically lived there on weekends. It’s a blast but it’s insanely fagged out and so degenerate it almost makes you want to puke. And I’m a libertine!

Hollywood is a mean, vicious town. It literally eats people alive, chews them up, and spits them out when it’s done with them. Las Vegas is another cruel town. It also eats people alive and bulimically vomits them out when it’s done. Neither town gives a damn about you – or anyone, really.

Both towns are all about money and the nice things that money can buy, like everything in the world, including humans for sex – sex which is pretty much pump and go to the club to grab a new one. There’s narcissism everywhere in  Hollywood. Hollywood literally breathes, eats, sleeps, and even shits narcissism. Narcissism is the gas, Hollywood is the engine. No narcissism, no Hollywood.

Both towns are predatory, with the rich preying on the poor suckers filled with the naive hope of fame or riches in both places. Both cities seem soulless and post-Christian or possibly never even Christian in the first place, as in heathen.

Both Hollywood and Vegas are in a race for the bottom behavior-wise, and no one gives a damn in either place. No one gives a damn about what? Anything. No one gives a damn about anything.

A lot of people move to Hollywood and LA to party their brains out for a while and then die. LA is literally a suicide trip for a lot of people. If narcissism is the gas for the Hollywood engine, nihilism is the exhaust.

Check out Sunset Boulevard in cinema, Nathaniel West or John Rechy in literature, or the Eagles, X, and the Germs in music for more. LA’s right on the edge of the sea after all. One earthquake and it all falls into the surf. LA is literally the end of a continent, and after you spend some time there, it really feels like it. It’s a lot of fun if you can take it, but it’s basically a stone evil town with pretty much zero morals about anything.

Most People Have Ambivalent Feelings Towards the Opposite Sex, or Towards Much of Anything Important for That Matter

Actually I have built up a lot more anger and even hatred towards women now later in life, although I still also love them very much as long as they behave themselves ha ha. So my feelings about women are ambivalent. I love them, I like them, I am indifferent to them, I feel annoyed and irritated by them, and yes, I hate them.

My feelings toward them are a mixture of all of these things, with an emphasis on the positive because that feels better and works better. Really humans are ambivalent and have mixed emotions towards all sorts of things.

Human nature is ambivalent. Sometimes you love a thing, sometimes you just like it, other times you could give a damn about it, other times it annoys you and bothers you and at yet other times you hate it so much you want to destroy it.

It’s not that all of those feelings are operating at the same time, but more that they are all down there, sitting there waiting to be activated. So you could love an object most of the time and at those times you would not be ambivalent towards it because you other feelings towards it would be suppressed. But then the object infuriates you and the hate you have towards it comes to the surface in full fury. Then you calm down because you’d rather love than hate and the Destructive Impulse goes back into hiding where it belongs.

Everybody lies all about this all the time. It’s a rare human who will admit to having ambivalent feelings towards much of anything. Mostly they just flat out deny it even though they probably have at least a bit of ambivalence towards that thing.

Ambivalence is just too weird of a feeling and causes too much cognitive dissonance, so we use defenses to deny that it is present most of the time. Ambivalence is confusing. Do we love that thing? Well, yeah. Do we hate it too? Well, sort of, yeah. Ok, so do we love it or do we hate it? Arggghhhhh! Who knows! You’re driving me crazy!

Most humans just don’t want to have painful conversations like that with themselves. Life’s hard enough as it is without walking on mental tightropes without a net. People want to be happy and the idea that we are ambivalent is not a very pleasant thought. It’s confusing and depressing.

So we say it’s not there. Except it is. In most all of us, most all of the time. It’s the truth, sorry. Believe it or don’t believe it, it’s the truth all the same.

Although I used to love women as a very young man in a pure, almost Platonic sense, I’m older and wiser now, or at least older and more battered, whichever it may be.

Actually I have built up a lot more anger and even hatred towards women now later in life, although I still also love them very much as long – as they behave themselves ha ha. So my feelings about women are ambivalent.

I love them, I like them, I am indifferent to them, I feel annoyed and irritated by them, and yes, I hate them. My feelings toward them are a mixture of all of these things or more properly move from one point to the other on the continuum, with an emphasis on the positive because that feels better and works better.

Really humans are ambivalent and have mixed emotions towards all sorts of things.

 

Sure, Narcissists Are Always Six Years Old, But Borderlines Are Only Two, and That’s So Much Worse

Object Relations,  Specifically Object Constancy

Facts don’t go away or become untrue simply because we say they don’t exist, sorry. Nevertheless most humans operate on this principle much of the time. Life works better with this pretty little lie.

This sort of thinking is not a mature way or looking at life, even though we adults think this way a lot.

Instead, that’s the world of a child, a little child. Show something to a kid and he knows it’s there. Take it away and put it behind you, and the child thinks it’s vanished off the face of the Earth.

When you can figure out that it’s not gone at all, only hidden behind your back, you have achieved Object Constancy, and humans don’t have it at first.

We have to develop it later on. Some people never develop a good sense of it. You see this a lot in mental disorders, especially personality disorders.

People with Borderline Personality Disorder have poor Object Relations, and their Object Constancy is poor also. But if you realize that all Borderlines are always and forever two years old, it all makes sense.

And Now We Are Six!

Sure, the narcissist is six, always and forever. 18 or 80, it’s all the same  because he’s still only six at any and every age. Six years old! I’m king of the hill! Ever see a first grader? Look at how self-centered they are. All children are extremely self-centered, but six year olds are the worst of all.

But Borderlines are forever two instead of six and that’s so much worse, sorry. And that’s also why Narcissists function so much better than Borderlines. Face it, a six year old human is far more functional than a two year old human, who is barely functional at all, merely a babe.

Sometimes Your Girlfriend’s Critiques of You Will Be Flat Out Untrue

In a prior post, I said that the woman who loves you will always see right through you and figure you out completely, the good and the bad, the warts and dimples, the whole damned nine yards.

But sometimes she might just be full of it. And women who don’t know you well can definitely be completely full of it as far as their judgements of you go.

Women who you don’t know well don’t care enough about you to truly figure you out. They’d only do that if they loved you and they’d only do it partway if they liked you a lot. But most women you see frequently as acquaintances don’t particularly care about you very much. It’s not that they hate you or even necessarily dislike you. It’s more that people can only care deeply about so many people in their lives before their hearts fill up and explode. Few of us are Mother Theresa.

Sometimes your girlfriend will say things about you that are flat out false. At age 26, a girlfriend said:

You’ve hated women your whole life.

That was a flat out lie on her part, or perhaps she really believed that and she simply didn’t understand me or didn’t perceive me properly. Maybe she was mad at me. Maybe she hated me  – she who loves you most also hates you most. Who knows? I was pretty good to her too. I treated her better than she deserved to be treated.

That really threw me for a spin because it wasn’t true, at least in my mind it wasn’t. In my mind I always just flat out loved them. In fact, I often said that to myself, “I love women. I love women. I love women” in my head when I was around them. I don’t know why I loved them, but I just did.

So that criticism would only make sense if I hated women unconsciously, but that would come out in my dreams at least. And it would be pretty weird for a guy who walks around all the time thinking about how much he loves women to actually hate them unconsciously. The unconscious doesn’t work that way.

Pay Attention to Persistent, Consistent (Same Theme) Criticism from Many People – They’re Probably Right

Although I am not getting along real well with women these days (with some exceptions), it’s a whole different story with men. Anyway this isn’t my fault. I just don’t think women treat men my age very well.

But I know the rejection I am getting from women is fake and there’s not something wrong with me because I still often get along great with other men.

Men don’t seem to treat men my age like crap other than quite young men in their 20’s, many of whom are dicks. I suppose the sexual element is not getting in the way with the men, so they can see me in a more lucid way. And I am a pretty likeable guy. That’s proven by how well some men get along with me.

At the hospital, I dealt with three cold nurses, one very friendly physician about my age and one very friendly male nurse about 30 years old. My conversations with them were full of warmth, joy, and mutual acceptance. They were both my best friends, and I just met them that day!

The physician doing the procedure, about my age, was hard to figure, but I had a session with him before, and we got along perfectly. He was my best friend! I don’t know why but a lot of men my age seem to really like me these days. But then I am basically a likeable, charming rogue after all.

I also got along famously with the x-ray tech, a younger man of ~40. He was my best friend too, what do you know!

If I were unlikable, fucked up, a social failure, a jerk, or an asshole, those men would not be getting along with me so well. They’d be treating me about how the women are, maybe a bit better, but I guarantee I would be getting a lot of messages from them about how fucked up I was and how that’s not cool, and I have to change.

Men will always give you those vibes when you are fucked up in various ways. If you are getting vibes from men like there is something wrong with you, and you start hearing them over and over, see if their very well-hidden critiques have something in common.

They probably will. If you are too anxious, men will be telling you that in various ways. If you are too angry, men will be telling you that. And so on. People don’t just make stuff up about you to be mean. Not about the same thing, over and over, by many different people. People just aren’t that mean.

Any sort of consistent negative messages you are getting from others, especially for men who praise logic and devalue irrationality and emotion, are probably true whether you want to believe it or not. Listen to your critics if you have any. If they’re all saying the same thing, and you’re hearing it a lot, you might want to look into changing your behavior.

Women Are Not Stupid At All – They Just Seem That Way to Us Men and Vice Versa

SHI:

Girl: “Where you’re from?”

Me: “You know, girl, Detroit?’”

Girl: “No need to swag. You’re not Black, you must be Pakistani or something.”

That’s one smart chick. Women are actually way smarter than we give them credit for. They’re also funny as Hell, especially young women. College girls can be hilarious. Junior high girls are experts at pranks and role-playing games.

Women are just as smart as we are at the moment. They used to be four points behind us, but even then, I met so many smart women it was ridiculous. I’ve known several women with IQ’s of 140+, including one with  156 IQ and another with a 160 IQ.

The 156 IQ woman was literally the fastest thinking human being I have ever met. Also she picked up on new concepts very fast. I would mention something she had never heard of, and she would ask me what that was. I would explain it to her, and it only took her a few minutes to digest the whole concept and get it.

I had 140 IQ girlfriend who was lightning fast too. She would get my jokes instantly, almost as soon as they left my mouth and would almost immediately make some comment on them, often to tell me how absurd the joke was. She was just BAM BAM BAM BAM! Jackhammer smart.

We think women have these little tiny pea brains because of the way they think. To us, female thinking and communication styles seem utterly insipid. Think of women sitting around gabbing about clothes, makeup, hot guys, or gossip and you’ll know what I mean. They seem like birdbrains – literally human songbirds idiotically chirping away and flitting around like birds at a feeder.

Young women seem especially ridiculous to us. But really, as I noted, that is simply because their thinking styles seem idiotic to us men. And that “ridiculous” nature of the female thinking style – exemplified in the giggly, idiotic high school girl – is particularly prominent among teenage girls and young women. They’re silly as Hell. They’re also a blast if you are young enough to enjoy them.

And let’s be fair now – I once told a female best friend that we women think women are idiots, and she laughed and said

That’s ok. We women all think men are idiots too.

I’ve been told that women think we are pinheads because of the way we think. Think of a bunch of men together partying.

The beer starts flowing and pretty soon they are acting like fools, joking or talking in a frivolous or juvenile way about sports and arguing about politics for no good reason other than because we men love a fight.  Pretty soon the room full of grown men degenerates into a room full of 13 year old boys. The fart jokes and falling on the floor laughing and clowning soon begins.

To women this looks exactly like what it is – men devolving into 13 year old boys, and retarded 13 year old boys at that. But we men are not stupid. We just seem that way to women because of the way we think that it is so different from the way that they think.

No One Will Ever Truly Understand You Like The Woman Who Loves You

Women in particular are masters of intuition and human psychology. They’re hard to fool in that sense. It’s humbling because you think you are fooling them with some bullshit you are pulling on them, but they often see right through you and call you out on it.

There’s no one who will ever figure you out like your girlfriend. She will see right through you and call out all bullshit and crap and lies. She will also figure out the true nature of your personality better than your therapist or even your own mother, who loves you too much in a different sense to ever tell you the truth about yourself. Your Mom is like your ego. She loves you so much that she’s willing to abide by all sorts of lies to think that you are the apple of her eye.

She will see right through your psyche and call it all out, the good and the bad, and trust me, she will not leave out the bad. She will tell you things about yourself that your own defenses had been denying to you, though they were obvious to everyone except you because you can’t see yourself.

I think this is particularly true if she is in love with you. Being in love really turns on that x-ray vision of theirs somehow.

And believe it or not, females with Borderline Personality Disorder are some of the finest experts at this ability to see right through you and figure you out. This has even been suggested theoretically, as clinicians have noticed that, while Borderlines are completely in the dark about themselves as all PD’s are, they somehow nevertheless are experts at figuring out other people.

*****

I’ve had girlfriends point out:

1. My egotism or self-satisfaction as one described it (she didn’t like it either). And it was often described in precisely those words – ego or egotism – as opposed to arrogance or other nastier things. And if you ask me to change this, I will laugh right in your face and refuse to. If you tell me it’s screwing up in my life, I will shrug my shoulders and say so what.

It feels too good to like yourself this much. I’m not selfish about it and I try not to think I am superior (though this is difficult also). In fact, I’d love to share the wealth. I often think everyone should love themselves as much as I do.

2. That I am actually I am actually rather conservative of all things about my values and how I live my life despite this lie that I put out that I am some let it all hang out wild man. This is due to my introversion, which makes me cautious and rather freak-averse. Being freak-averse is uncool nowadays as we are supposed to worship freaks and weirdos like secular gods.

3. The fact that I am actually quite shy despite the big lie that I put out about being this freewheeling extrovert. I am often painfully shy, and both strangers and people who knew me have suggested that I have Social Phobia. I don’t have that diagnosis, but I can be pretty avoidant. That’s one of the worst parts of me, but it’s due to things other than Social Phobia. Anyway, ordinary shyness is often confused with Social Phobia.

But I am not that introverted, as true introverts marvel at my extroversion. For instance, I can definitely talk a lot, and true introverts are often like furniture. They sit there and don’t say anything for long periods of time, and you get frustrated with them because it seems like they literally have no psyche or at least not one that they want to share with anyone anyway. There’s literally nothing inside of them! Or so it seems.

I often walk right up to complete strangers of all ages and both genders and start talking to them, which lately is getting me in trouble now that feminists have made Talking to People Who Don’t Want You Talking to Them a crime.

I tell my mother, a true introvert, that I walk right up to total strangers and talk to them, and she is amazed and shocked and says she could never do that. But girlfriends have pointed out that my shyness is rather cute and touching in a way. That’s probably true too.

4. That I am an expert, glib, bullshitting, charming, and often hilarious liar, but a big fat liar nonetheless. In other words, that I am basically full of shit, which is sadly true. I’m not going to change this about myself either. It’s too much fun to be a slyly deceitful bad boy and put one over on the world, a world which I already hate anyway.

5. That I am actually not a 100% good person, and in truth, I am even a little bit evil. Only a little bit evil, sure, but I am evil nonetheless. I don’t feel like changing that either ha ha. Being a bit evil is too much fun. Some ex-girlfriends think I am pure evil; one said I was “the worst man on Earth,” which makes laugh proudly. They didn’t think that way when they were with me though, and I don’t agree that that’s a fair judgement.

6. That my sense of humor is rather childish. For instance, I often make funny faces while barely realizing it. Girlfriends often alternately LOL at these faces (which are pretty damn funny to tell the truth) or chide me for being an overgrown teenager, which I also am, tragically I suppose. I’m not going to change that either ha ha. Or maybe I will.

7. The fact that I have shut down my feelings so much that I almost seem to not have any feelings and appear like Spock on Star Trek or a literal rock. I do have feelings of course, and when young I had quite a range of feelings.

I shut them down starting in my early 20’s as a defense mechanism against immense pain I was experiencing. I’m not sad that I did it, but sometimes I long for my old feelings back. It’s especially bad because when you kill those intense bad feelings, you pay for it by killing off the intense good feelings too.

No free lunch, eh? You pay for everything in life. You pay for the good stuff with the bad stuff. Bad stuff is literally currency that we use to purchase those shiny, bright goblets of experience that make this shitshow all worthwhile.

I still have feelings, but they are rather muted, and they are more in my mind than in my body anyway. I took all the feelings out of my body and stuck them in my head, where they swim around and cause all sorts of troubles.

If you ever meet anyone who seems very shut down like this, there’s probably a reason for it – a good reason. For instance, they are probably doing that to protect themselves from pain, an avalanche of injury, a bottomless well of hurt. There’s a method to the madness, and there’s a reason, often a fairly good or at least understandable reason, for most everything in life. We think that all these things happen for no reason, but they just don’t. It’s a brutal revelation.

8. The fact that, while I am not a narcissist, nevertheless I can be horribly self-centered. This sometimes seems infuriating to others. Who do I want to talk about? Me. Who do I not want to talk about? You. Ha ha. I’m very sorry about that, and I actually would like to change this. I work on it all the time, but I have to consciously try to, which makes it difficult, not to mention it’s pretty baked in by now anyway.

9. The fact that I mix that a Jupiter-sized ego with truly tragic self-deprecation which often looks like out and out self-hatred. I have had girlfriends who were shocked and stunned at this aspect of me. It seems like I really love myself, but maybe that’s not the whole story.

Maybe in part I hate myself. I do hate certain parts of myself. I basically think that I am a fucktard in certain ways. I beat myself up for this all the time, and I am always trying to change it. But I just can’t seem to stop doing it. I guess the fucktardedness is cemented over by now too.

I will be somewhere, interacting with other people, trying to get outside of my fucktardedness and act like a normal human instead of a distracted space cadet genius with his head in the clouds. I will be chattering away faking being normal like I always do, and Mr. Fucktard comes knocking at the door in my brain.

Mr. Fucktard: Hi! It’s me! Your fucktarded part of yourself, and I’m here to fuck up your life LOL! Hope you have fun while I ruin whatever it is you are doing right now LOL!

Me: Shit. What are you doing here? I hate you so much I could strangle you with my bare hands, you little shit. Seriously, I want to murder you, you sonofabitch, and I will do it too, slit your throat as coldly as if I were eating a bowl of cereal!

Mr. Fucktard: LOL! Yeah, you dumbshit. You’ve been trying to kill me for decades now, and you just can’t because you’re too fucking lame LOL.

Catch me if you can, you bastard! No matter how fast you run trying to chase me, as soon as you catch up to me, I’ll be in front of you again as fast as that! I’m like your fears. You can’t outrun me.

Hell, maybe I am your idiotic fears you never got rid of, you fool LOL! You can’t get rid of me! I’ll be hanging around you until you die, gleefully ruining everything you do. Why? Just for shits and giggles and because I hate you.

Why do I hate you? Because you’re a stupid fucking asshole, that’s why LOL! I’ll never quit. Hell, I’ll probably keep trying to ruin you after you die! I’ll haunt your silly corpse, dumbass! LOL!

10. The fact that I am actually serious, even very, very serious, as in dead serious. I think I am this flippant fun guy – funny guy, but maybe it’s not  so true.

*****

Yes – all of these aspects of myself which I don’t want to think about or even deny that they exist – my wonderful girlfriends have stripped away all my defenses hiding these things from me and shredded them in front of me like thin toilet paper.

They put up the most brutal and sadly truthful mirror ever in front of me and forced me to look at that horrible image there. That cruel trick of an image that doesn’t even look like me at all. But that I still know somehow, deep down inside, is really me, part of my psyche, the black part.

What’s Behind California’s High Housing Costs and High Rates of Homelessness, Poverty, and Welfare Use?

Tulio: Hey RL, just a bit off topic, I was recently reading that California when adjusted for cost of living has the highest poverty rate in the country and that it also has the most welfare recipients.

The Right has been going nuts in the Trump era bashing California and called it a failed 3rd World state that looks the way it does because it’s controlled by Democrats. A lot of that is of course hyperbole, but there is a lot of struggle in California.

I’ve always found this argument a bit specious because there are 15 or so other states where Democrats control the governorship and legislature that don’t have the same quality of life problems. The Right will ignore of course that the majority of high-poverty states are red states.

But there is a question I’m wondering. Is the demographic change of California from majority White to now mostly Latino the reason for these economic problems? It stands to reason that if most of your demographic change is coming from immigrants of a poor country, it will make your state a poorer place.

And this has nothing to do with people voting Democratic per se. If tomorrow 10 million Central Americans immigrated to Nebraska I’m sure you’d see similar issues emerge.

Good question.  This is an excellent hypothesis, actually. I just don’t think there is much of anything to it.

High Cost of Housing: The Secret Behind All of the Problems

The adjusted poverty rate is due to the high cost of housing. Everything else flows from that. What are we supposed to do about it? This is a problem of capitalism. Explain what the state is supposed to do about this housing problem.

I mean we are trying to do a lot of things but the money’s not available for a total solution to the problem. Also our solutions are running into a lot of NIMBYism.

The Homeless Cataclysm

We are fairly kind to our homeless here, so other states kindly put their homeless on buses to California, especially cities like San Francisco. We are trying to deal with this homeless problem as best as we can. What are we supposed to do? The homeless problem is also tied into the housing problem.

Problems of Penal System Reform

The problem is also drugs. Face it, a lot of the homeless are mentally ill or alcohol or drug addicted. They can’t work even if they wanted to. We have decriminalized a lot of drug use here and we released a lot of inmates and reduced a lot of crimes from felonies to  misdemeanors. Also our jails and prisons are badly overcrowded. Hence a lot fewer minor offenders are getting locked up and a lot of them are just roaming the streets instead.

Problems of Drug Decriminalization or Legalization

Everyone says we ought to decrim drug use and I have always tended to agree. But this is what you end up with when you do that. In Seattle, they look the other way on minor drug use and possession, hence there is a huge amount of open drug possession, use, and dealing, a lot of it right out in the open and associated with the homeless.

The drug of choice is often methamphetamine, which can make you act pretty crazy. So you have these crazed meth heads roaming around the streets scaring everyone, certain streets no-go zones due to open drug use, homeless everywhere, even sleeping on sidewalks  where you have to step over them, and rampant crime, mostly petty thievery from stores as addicts steal like crazy to get money for their habits.

I am at a loss to do about any of these problems, sorry. I just want to throw up my hands.

What’s Wrong with Social Programs?

So we have a lot of welfare? Big deal. That’s the state trying to deal with the poverty problem. Good for the state! Keep in mind that to these guys, everything is welfare: Section 8, Food Stamps, Disability, Workman’s Comp, reduced utility bills, on and on.

Serious Limits on What a Mere State Can Do about These Things

We are a very liberal state with a very liberal Legislature that cares a lot about these problems, but they are beyond the scope of the state government to deal with, much less fix. But we are trying our best. Ask these Republicans what we ought to be doing instead.

I don’t think changing from a majority White state to a majority Hispanic state has much to do with it. There is a lot of poverty, here but there is also a lot of wealth. Keep in mind that California has the 8th largest economy on Earth, higher than the vast majority of actual countries. And we’re not even a country. We are just a state.

All Straight Men Are Homophobes

SHI: I’m not a homophobe but I kinda enjoy the graphic videos of Middle Eastern Islamo-fascists throwing gay men off buildings.

I don’t condone any killings no matter what. Besides, the person perceived to be “gay” isn’t always like that. He might have been on the down low or just been mistook for someone else. And fuck the Islamofascists, they’re sickening beings.

LOL but what do you think of this video?

I think all straight men are homophobes to a certain degree.

It’s all right if you get off on those sick videos. I understand the appeal, and I ain’t no moralfag. Sorry though, I can’t get into those videos.

I am not wild about gay men at all, trust me. I’m pretty much done with them, and I don’t want them around me. However, I don’t hate the actual biological ones at all, since I know that they can’t help it and there’s no cure for their condition. I wish all the same happiness and long, healthy lives for them as I do for myself. But I still don’t really want them around me. They make uncomfortable, sorry.

However, that clip about throwing gay men off of buildings hits a bit too close to home for me.

I’ve been gaybashed or assaulted for being perceived as gay three times (ages 16, 21  and 24), once with a baseball bat. And I’m not even gay. One of the main problems with gay bashers is that they beat up a lot of straight guys. I don’t want them beating up gay men either, but that isn’t really my problem; that’s someone else’s problem.

Plus a lot of people used to think I was gay, so I got a whole taste of the sort of homophobia that a lot of gay men have to deal with. Let me tell you, it’s not a good feeling. Now I am straight and being attacked homophobically is a particularly weird thing. They are attacking me for something that’s not even true, and top of that, it’s a serious insult. Imagine you were getting beat up for being a Martian! That’s what it feels like.

On the other hand, if I were gay, the homophobia I got would at least be based on something true. I have no idea if that makes it feel better or worse, and I have no way or determining that either. I doubt if anyone does.

I don’t get attacked homophobically much anymore. I told some recent long term girlfriends that a lot of people used to think I was gay, and they all said, “I can’t see it. I don’t understand why anyone would think that about you. It makes no sense.” They said it over and over, too.

One long-term girlfriend even told me, “You seem pretty masculine to me.” WTF. No way. No woman has ever told me I’m masculine. I’ve been told that I’m tough. I’ve been told that I’m a hardass, whatever that means. But masculine? Nope. But she is from Europe, and maybe they have different standards over there. Anyway it sure felt good to be called masculine!

And I  only get called gay maybe once every ~5 years now. I think maybe five people have stated that they thought I was gay in the last 20 years, and four of them were members of street gangs. Gangsters have extreme demands for masculinity, and they will be the first ones to all any man gay. You have to act a lot more feminine than that to get regular people to call you that.

I think I may have changed my behavior to be a lot more masculine. It’s been a conscious effort to do that. I figure if I am straight, why shouldn’t I act like it, right? It works pretty good. Any straight guys getting mistreated because people think they are gay, I hate to say it, but if they change their  behavior enough, they might hear it a lot less.

But yeah, of course all straight men are homophobes. All these straight guys who insist they are not homophobic, ask them this:

Ok, I have a very goodlooking gay man here, and he says he will suck your cock for free. And he’s really damn good – better than most women. All you have to do is lay back, close your eyes, and pretend it’s Seka. You ready to go?

100% of them will say no. Ask them why and they will all say guys don’t turn them on. But that never stopped any man. The real reason is that they have an incredible revulsion towards the idea of homosexual acts. That revulsion right there is de facto homophobia. So yeah, all straight men are homophobes. Of course were are. If we were not homophobes, we would be on our knees sucking cocks right now ha ha.

Should Designated Victim Minors Be Put in Special Protective “Schools for the Bullied?”

Jason: Well, do you feel there should be special education in regular schools – not special schools? I mean, honestly, the people who seem retarded are bullied but so are the retarded at the same rate simply because as you say boys (and girls) are acting according to instinct.

I don’t know. Perhaps we could set up special schools for designated victims. Of course then the “normal bullies” wouldn’t have anyone to bully, but I’m sure they will make do. They will just bully their siblings or whatever.

It is a very interesting idea. A lot of people won’t do it because there will be stigma attached with having to go to the Bullied School because you were such a fucktard that everyone bullied you. You could get bullied on that basis right there.

Also as pointed out below it might be just overprotecting kids from the hardships of life, making them unprepared for the real world.

Another problem would be as stated above that the stigma of going to Fucktard School for the Bullied might be pretty extreme right there. Maybe a lot of boys or parents don’t want that shame on the bullied one’s resume.

Another problem is that the bullied might just form a hierarchy of the bullied and bully each other. Not sure how likely that is but I’m sure it is somewhat likely.

But I’m not really a fan of bullying in sense. I have had clients and friends who got bullied, mostly in junior but also in elementary school, and they are still fucked up over this to this very day. Basically they have low self-esteem. Otherwise they function well. Perhaps some of these people were designated victims.

Be that as it may, even designated victims are human, and the bullying they get is horribly painful for them, and it even screws them up far into adulthood. I mean what did these designated victims really do? Nothing, honestly. We punish traffic offenders worse than those people deserve to get punished.

The downside is that getting bullied often toughens boys so it makes them mature. Also a lot of people get bullied hard over certain things, and then you meet them later, and they are completely normal. The behaviors they were bullied over are gone.

Did the bullying make them stop their stupid behaviors? I have no idea. Maybe they just did it on their own. But I tried to shape up after I got bullied. I tried to be a cool guy so I didn’t get bullied anymore. I think bullying probably does force some people to shape up and get their shit together.

Then others are damaged far into their 30’s.

It’s like a test of pure fire. Boys are iron and the bullying is an iron force with fire. It turns boys into men, hopefully. The ones that make it past the bullying and get their shit together are like stainless steel, forged in the fire of cruelty, harassment, undignified insults, and humiliation. On the other hand a lot iron boys walk through the fire and don’t get turned into steel at all. They might just rust or turn brittle, I have no idea.

My Position on Bullying, Again

Jason: Come on @Robert Lindsay – you’re saying bullying is natural to boys and encouraging it BUT YOU CAN’T TAKE IT.

Jason and I are much closer on this issue than you think. We only differ on a few things.

How many times do I have to tell Jason this? I don’t want to have to make these posts over and over.

  • I oppose all bullying in adulthood. Even in high school you mostly should knock it off. But I support bullying severe outliers in high school – like people who are so insanely nerdy that you can’t even look at them without laughing.
  • Also I do not justify bullying in boyhood. But it will go on, and you can’t stop it.  Of course it’s natural and normal. This is the way humans are. We are mammals.
  • I do justify bullying of extreme outliers in grade school and junior high because it’s the only thing that might force them to get their shit together. I knew severe outliers who got bullied hard from age 9-13 and I met them later at 16-18 and the behavior that got them bullied was gone. Did the bullying make it go away? And boys will never accept effeminate boys. Moral of the story: Don’t be a severe outlier, weirdo, freak, kook, or idiot.
  • Don’t be a Goddamned crybaby. Crybabies need to get bullied hard.
  • Don’t act like a Goddamned faggot if you are a little boy. You’re going to get creamed. No two ways about it.
  • Don’t act like an outrageously idiotic nerd to where you are so spazzed out you seem legitimately retarded.
  • Don’t be a psycho boy  to where you are such a weird, psycho, future serial killer that even other boys think you’re a dangerous freak. And yeah, those boys need to get bullied really hard. They’re mean as snakes anyway. Except maybe it makes them worse.

But I do not accept the bullying of ordinary boys in general, although this sort of thing does go on in the family. I will admit that I bullied my younger brother. What am I supposed to say? It was fucked up, but kids don’t understand that. I didn’t understand it was  wrong at the time. I got told endlessly that it was wrong and I was a bad person for doing it, and I laughed and thought that was the dumbest thing I ever heard.

I am saying that kids don’t understand that this sort of thing is wrong, especially among brothers with young boys. But my friends and I – we did not bully each other. And we only bulliedthe youngest brother sometimes. Bullying is ugly – nobody can handle it – I could not and honestly cannot. But it will never go away. You just have to make people tough enough to not get bullied or not care if they got bullied.

Also I was bullied quite badly in elementary school, junior high, and even high school.Not a lot of times but some. Those were some of the most traumatic events of my life.

But these were like mean, antisocial, psychopathic boys who were preying on normal boys like me in a really evil way. They preyed on many other normal boys too. I told you that I opposed the mean, bully boy, psychopath types bullying normal boys.

But that’s going to happen too. I was probably doomed to be bullied at least a bit. SHI bullied other boys when he was in grade school, junior high and high school.

Right, nobody can handle it. I don’t know I have to keep reiterating my position here over and over. And I oppose all the mean boy psychopathic bullying done to Jason as a boy, as I don’t think he was a severe outlier. And of course your getting bullied as an adult is absolutely outrageous.

Jason: Especially, you can’t handle the sissification. It’s kind like stuff I endured being called Faaaagooooot (mocking a goat sound).

I did not get bullied too much like this, but at age 16, yes, I was bullied by some local juvenile delinquents who were tormenting me because they legitimately thought I was gay I guess. I thought they were my friends and I was hanging out with them trying to be “cool.”

They were running up to me, hitting me and running away again and laughing. I just stood there saying over and over, “I’m not gay. I’m not gay. I’m not gay.” I knew I wasn’t gay and I thought if I could convince them of that, they would leave me alone. But that was one of the most traumatic events of my life.

Jason: Especially, you can’t handle the sissification. It’s kind like stuff I endured being called Faaaagooooot (mocking a goat sound).

Did they actually think you were gay? I mean for real, a homosexual? Or did they know you were straight, and they were just bugging you?

Jason and I are not effeminate. I don’t agree with gay-baiting boys like us.

I don’t like people to think I am wimpy or gay, correct. But they have thought that a lot in my life anyway, especially when I was younger.

It sort of traumatized me in a sense though because I do have a deep neurotic fear that people think I am gay, especially a girlfriend I am having sex with.

The idea of having sex with a woman and having her legitimately wondering if she is fucking a gay or bisexual man is something I cannot reconcile. It’s a crazy fear. I have been trying to work my way out of it forever, but I can’t seem to.

I think it is an OCD symptom, honestly. It goes round and round and never gets resolved, and that is OCD (ruminations). There! You all wanted to know some my OCD symptoms? There ya go! It’s stuff like that. Sort of embarrassing to talk about because it seems to stupid to worry about stuff like that.

It’s happened before – one girlfriend was convinced I was bisexual, and another was convinced that I used to be gay. I fucked the second one all the time anyway, like 3-4 times a day. I fucked her so much my dick almost fell off. I never discussed with her why she thought that. I was 26 and 28 years old then in the former and latter cases. Perhaps I acted different, no idea. I hardly hear it anymore. Perhaps I changed my behavior?

I have always rejected the idea that I am effeminate. It makes me angry. I am quite soft though, and I can have a very soft voice sometimes. You can hardly hear me sometimes. But it is sort of a very soft seductive voice, and a lot of women told me it drives them crazy.

People think soft men, wimpy, passive, or soft-voiced men (like Mr. Rogers) are gay, but honestly, I have known many guys like that in life, and generally, most men like that are simply straight. Wimpy men especially tend to be straight. There are some gay men who act like that, but those are the ones they call “straight-acting.”

If you know anything about psychology, can’t you see that this macho thing I push is called compensation? I’m not being a macho jerk-off. It’s an internal matter in my head. Get it? We’re all screwed up in the head, man. Even us adults.

Well, nobody can handle it. That’s why I quit the church across the road from me. That’s why I essentially live in a hole – isolated in my room on computers all the time.

Of course  nobody can handle it.

I cannot reiterate what a catastrophe this. We on this blog need to maybe figure out how we can help poor Jason here. This sort of stuff should not be going on with an adult man. And this is no way to live your life. Of course I oppose this. Bullying in adulthood is nonsense.

PUA/Game: How to Tell If Your “Date” Is a Thieving Whore

Whores and Worse, Much Worse – “Thieving Whores” Who Take Your Money and Run, Giving up No Sex

Any woman who demands that you spend a lot of money on her before you have sex is a whore, and not only but that but usually a thieving whore, as she will get you to spend $25-80 on her, wave the sex in front of you like a bullfighter’s flag, then pull the flag away from you at the last minute.

You turn around and she’s gone, out the door, nowhere to be seen. You’re out money and she never fulfilled her end of the deal. There a huge number of these out and out thieving whores out there (though actually not whores as I pointed out) who seem to exist on Earth for the sole purpose of stealing from us men.

I would say most men want to kill women like this, but most of us never do it. We don’t even hit them. But women like this (and golddiggers) are the enemies of the men. They are the enemies of my people, the men.

There are others who ask for money up front before the date begins (gas money to drive to your place, other bullshit, pay her bills), sometimes with a promise to date you later and do whatever you want. Don’t do it. The money will be gone and the woman will never show up. And the date two weeks later will never happen.

Clues are she will not let you come to her place or meet her in public, will not follow you to your place, won’t even let you meet her at all. And in all these cases, the thieving whore wants money up front. Sometimes you are all set for sex and then right at the last minute she needs $20 for a game for the kid while she’s gone fucking you. You still haven’t met her yet.

Never shell out money to a woman you have never met. Never shell out money to a woman before a date even starts. Other red flags are: won’t give you her number – a woman who dates you will always give you her number.

Won’t meet you in a public place – a woman who dates you will always meet you in a public place. Won’t meet you at her place and doesn’t want you knowing where she lives – a woman who dates you generally will tell you her address, at least if you are going to her place.

I can’t believe how many young women age 18-25 are out and out thieving, whoring psychopaths. Their sole existence on this Earth is to steal from us men. Apparently while dishing out as little sex as possible.

PUA/Game: Sex after 50, or What’s Left of It Anyway

Sex after 50

It never ends.

First of all, I want to say that it never ends. I don’t think sex ever ends. I have no idea how much sex elderly people have, but I’m sure they have some. The sex drive is so strong that it often goes on until the end of our lives.

A 60 year old impotent men can’t get it up, so he does nothing but eat pussy. He pays a prostitute so he eat her pussy for an hour a day for six months. An 80 year old man, no doubt of dubious sexual ability, crawls on his knees in front of a dominatrix to kiss her boots.

Their dicks don’t even work anymore, and they are still doing it.

It Never Ends

I am over age 60. At my age and all through my 50’s, trust me, no one cared about money. I had women who paid my way for lunch and then dinner. I had women who paid my way for two-week stays at their place, including airfare. I had women who bought plane tickets to come see me to stay at my place and then go on multi-day vacations. They paid for everything. On dates, it’s common to go Dutch. I had one woman who did not like it, but screw her.

You see, after age 50, no one cares. Or no one who will go out with me cares. No one cares about money either. There are no golddiggers because the women have all lost their looks so they can’t whore their looks for money like a young woman can.

Everyone is very relaxed, and Dutch or even she pays is often not a problem. Even sex if it happens is very relaxed and slow. We often take a while to get going, take our time, relax. There’s no rush because we don’t give a damn anymore. I mean we do it, but we don’t necessarily jump right in.

Everything proceeds at a calm and relaxed pace. No woman over age 50 has any more inhibitions, and most of us men don’t either. Neither sex gives a damn about much of anything anymore. We’ve all stopped caring.

Sex is very relaxed, and sexual problems, which are common at our age, are shrugged off as nothing. We’re not as capable, but we are more relaxed than we have ever been. It’s a bit sad that humans finally totally relax and lose it all about sex at around the time that the ability to do it drops off ha ha. But it’s a nice time of life for sex because no one gives two fucks about anything anymore.

PUA/Game: Why Do American Women Demand That the Man Pay for Everything on Dates?

Found on the Net:

I honestly dont understand western dating methods. It almost sounds artificial.

All the dates I went out and my friends both male and females, never really spent more than 5 euros.

My responses:

Long tradition of men paying in this stupid country. She makes more money than you? No matter, you still cover everything. Expect her to leave a tip? Outrageous! American women are princesses and it’s outrageous to ask that they spend one nickel on a date.

Fading away, but the sad truth is that a lot of young women are simply out and out whores. I mean not the good kind but like a prostitute who drains your wallet.

Gold-diggers out to take men for every nickel are everywhere, especially among young women age 18-30. Fully 1/3 of young women are out and out psychopaths who gleefully use men they have no interest in just for free meals.

All of the above applies to young women in the US (the Land of Whores), who are basically thieving, gold-digging monsters. Young women are beautiful and have awesome bodies, so these physical attributes are like legal tender in that they basically charge for access to it.

In one way or another, a huge number of young women in the US are simply selling their pussies. They may not be walking the streets, but they are not tremendously different. After age 30 most women have Walled out and quit selling pussy because they can’t get away with it anymore.

They are looking for a betabux for marriage and kids, sport-fucking, and having relationships/ relationshits or whatever most normal women do. But they aren’t really fucking for money anymore simply because they can’t get away with it. We men won’t fork it over for their post-Wall pussies. We’d rather pay for the young stuff, 18-30.

We worship money here in America, and here’s the evidence of that. I guess that’s behind all of this mass whoredom and pussy-selling.

Janet Fiamengo, “Feminists Play Fast and Loose with Data Again”

Feminist messing with rape data and blowing the rape rate far higher than it actually is. The latest fake feminist study.

Ever heard the figure that 20% of women get raped at university? Sure you have. Well, it’s a lie. The definition of rape includes everything from guys grabbing you in sexual ways. Sorry baby, that don’t count. It’s not nice behavior, but it’s not rape.

So how many women really get raped at university? Try 2.3%

Ever seen the figure of how many women get raped over a lifetime? I forget the figure but it’s more fakery. What’s the real figure? Try 16%. That’s one out of six, but it includes date rape, the majority of rape, which, while nasty, isn’t the same thing and the stranger in a ski mask with a knife in his hand jumping out of the bushes and dragging you off to rape you at knife-point. That’s called stranger rape, and it’s a lot more dangerous.

How many rape claims are false? Feminist claim it is 2-8%, but no one knows where that data comes from. The question has only been surveyed twice in good studies, both in university towns in the Midwest in the 1970’s and 1980. The studies found false report rates of 42% and 50%. There you go. 46% of rape cases filed with the police are false. I don’t think we should persecute women who falsely report rape because we want them to admit it if they fake it.

You hear crazy figures like out of every 1,000 rape cases, only 6 result in a conviction and incarceration.

Well, I know a cop. He told me that in his city, they throw out 90% of rape cases women file immediately. In half of them, the woman can’t keep her story straight, so bye bye. The other half are cases involving live in or married couples where the woman is accusing the man of rape amidst a background of heavy drinking, drug use, or both. Those cases are all gone too. The cops just throw up their hands. Who can you believe?

There are also some fairly valid reasons why the rest of rape cases that are actually filed – 100 out of 1,000 – eventually filter down to 6 out of 1,000.

Actually most rapists are not particularly dangerous. The truly dangerous rapists are the sadistic rapists. Feminists will say all rapists are sadistic, but really only 5-10% qualify. Can they kill? Oh Hell yeah, and hurt you too. They don’t necessarily kill you, but they do threaten you and may well hurt you. These guys get off hurting, torturing and even killing other humans. Get off as in sexually.

There are other rapists, two categories having to do with power. One is called power reassurance. This man feels he is inadequate and rapes to make himself feel like a man again. These are often the “gentleman rapist” types. They really exist. They won’t hurt you and they often apologize to the woman after it’s over.

There is the power-anger rapist. This man is angry at women for whatever reason, which could be due to all sorts of things. He hates women or at least is very angry with them. They usually don’t kill but they can, especially if the woman puts up a fight.

In those cases, he can indeed hurt the woman and sometimes even kill her. If he kills her, he feels bad about and leaves soon afterwards. They often do hurt women though because roughness, beatings, etc. may accompany the rape due to his rage at women.

Repost: Why Are Some Animals Gay? Are There any That Do Not Reproduce Due to Being Gay? Wouldn’t That Be an Evolutionary Disadvantage? If It’s Just a Selected Few in a Group, How Do You Know That It’s Not an Anomaly?

Posted last year. Updated and reposted as it’s getting some comments lately.

Answered on Queera, I mean Quora.

The PC line is that homosexuality is widespread in the animal kingdom. “All animals are gay!” is how Gay Politics propaganda goes. Actually it’s not.

This line is taken to extremes recently, and it is not uncommon to hear PC types say that 10% of all types of birds and mammals are gay. That’s clearly nonsense.

Both claims are simply examples of the typical retarded lying that Gay Politics constantly engages in. It shares this with other forms of Identity Politics, all of which are forms of chauvinist propaganda for various groups based on massive retarded lying and victim worship for the identity group along with demonization and irrational, often bizarre and extremely dishonest propagandized hatred of out-group “oppressors” of the same group.

There are cases of two same sex birds incubating an egg, but apparently there was a shortage of the opposite sex that gave rise to this. Also they didn’t have sex with each other.

I had a cat once that went into heat. You can hear and even observe when a cat is in heat. I won’t go into details. You will have to figure it out for yourself. When this cat was in heat, one of my female cats tried to mount the female in heat!

If you drive mice crazy enough in the lab or subject them to very crowded conditions, male mice will attempt to mount each other. They don’t actually have sex. This is called lordosis. This pseudo-homosexuality is a side effect of the mice being driven crazy by overcrowding or whatever. This suggests that homosexuality may be a psychological or sociological behavioral disturbance in some cases.

Bonobo chimpanzees (at least the females) are apparently often bisexual, but I am not aware of any gay or lesbian bonobos, nor am I aware of male bonobos having sex with each other.

However, sheep are a good case for homosexuality in the animal kingdom. Approximately 6% of male sheep prefer to mount other male sheep. I am not sure what they accomplish when they do that, but that’s what they do. They don’t have sex with female sheep. That is quite an excellent analogy in the animal world to male homosexuality among humans. As far as why sheep are like this, I have no idea at all.

Game/PUA: Bad Boy Game and How To Run It

If you already have the Looks, adding any sort of Game will greatly enhance your success with females. Bad Boy Game is an excellent Game to run if you that sort of a personality inside of you that you can whip out. I’ve been more or less running Bad Boy Game for 45 years now ever since I was a drug dealing juvenile delinquent in high school, and it’s worked great.

The trick with Bad Boy Game is to be a bad boy but stay out of jail or prison! You can break the law in some victimless ways like dealing drugs, but be careful. I lived as a criminal for 14 years (drug dealer), and I never got caught. I tell this to women and they never criticize me. They always look amazed that I never got caught. But I was very careful.

I would also advocate running Bad Boy Game just as a type of Game and not a real lifestyle. In other words, it’s basically fake, a pose, like being an actor. And I would advise not getting into it so much that you become an asshole, jerk, or complete bastard who habitually abuses women in various ways.

Yes, you have to stand up for yourself and fight back with women, and I’ve called a number of women every name in the book when they started acting real bad. But as long as she’s acting good, go ahead and be nice to her. You can run Bad Boy Game and be nice at the same time. In fact it is an excellent combination.

Game/PUA: The “Older Men Who Go for Young Women Are Losers Who Go for Easy Pickings Young Women Because Can’t Get a Woman Their Own Age” Lie

I’ve dated women this age off and on since I was in my early 40’s ( a lot at the beginning of the period, much fewer lately), and trust me when I say it’s not so easy to get them into bed. Hell, it’s like pulling hen’s teeth to even get them to go out with you because 99% of them think you’re a gross old man.

There’s only a few young women that age who even want to go for an older guy.

Girls that age are also extremely moody, temperamental, and nutty, so I’d say that they call you out on your bullshit all the time. The last two I dated were both suicidal. Older women are so much more stable.

The girls I dated got angry at me many times when I was with them, usually over ridiculous nonsense. It’s not like they’re going to go along with everything you suggest.

When I was 18-21, quite a few of my friends were dating underage girls 14-17. The men were not immature as everyone thinks. They were Alphas who were bedding women of all ages. The jailbaits made a beeline straight for the best men of all my age and bypassed everyone else. I never heard any of these guys say these girls were easy prey. They said it was not so easy to get them into bed, a lot were still wary virgins, etc.

Nothing changes are men age. Young women and teenage girls still head straight for the Alphas. Look a the women prominent JB’s have ended up with: movie stars, rock stars, billionaires, movie directors. They head straight for the top. They’re worse than the women our age!

This “older men who go for teenage girls or young women because they are losers and women their age won’t tolerate their crap” is nonsense. I’ve never met an older man who was too immature for women his age, so he went for young women because they were easy targets. I think it’s a fairy tale or urban legend, frankly.

First of all, almost any older man who can land a girl that age is usually doing great with women his age. Hell, why do you think the girl went for him in the first place? Anyway, those girls complain a lot and are very easily annoyed by all sorts of things.

I would not say they call you out on your bullshit less than older women do. But they see right through you just like an older woman does. An 18 or 19 year old will figure you out real quick and expose your true self to you, good and bad, gifts and flaws, better than your therapist, just like any woman, really.

All females will tend to call you on your shit. But if you are older man with very young women, they will get angry a lot, and when they do, they will insult you horribly. Typically they will call you an old man, which, even if it is true, hurts. They will attack your looks and practically say you are ugly or at least you are not as hot as men her age.

Now about this BS about older men who go for young women being losers who can’t get a woman their own age…

Haha. Guess who made up this stupid lie? Women! Especially, guess who? Ding! Right! Older women. Why, of course, what did you expect? Why?

Because a lot of older men chase younger women, and this really burns older women up basically because they know they can’t compete with young hotties. So they resort to making up lies about older men who chase younger women in order to try to shame these men and make them stop and to make these older women themselves feel better about losing some high-quality older man dick.

Women are so transparent. Their lies are so obvious and pathetic that’s it’s laughable the way so many of them actually believe this BS.

But then, women live in a fairy tale world, a fantasy land. They don’t live in the real world because it’s cruel and evil and women, being sensitive and basically good-hearted souls, can’t handle such a cold and vicious world. So they make up lies to say the world is not really like this and instead of the world being as it is, it is as women  imagine or fantasize that is.

I don’t blame women for being sensitive and kind-hearted souls who long for defenses against the arbitrary cruelty and even evil of life. I don’t mind denial as a defense. As an introvert, of course fantasy is where I live most of the time.

But I know the difference between reality and fantasy. I know I’m BSing myself but I don’t care. I know I’m denying all the failures and fuckups of my life, but I don’t care. And I can brainwash myself into believing that my denial and fantasy defenses are the truth.

But deep down inside, of course I know they are not. Women are not so enlightened. They actually believe that the world works according to how women think it should work. If they ever figure out the truth, boy are they in for a rude surprise.

One of the fantasy lies that women, typically older women, believe is that older men who chase young women go for young, vulnerable, stupid, easy pickings females. But they’re not.

I’ve dated women this age off and on since I was in my early 40’s, and trust me when I say it’s not so easy to get them into bed. Hell, it’s like pulling hen’s teeth to even get them to go out with you because 99% of them think you’re a gross old man.

Even when I was young, it was not that easy getting teenage girls into bed. A lot of them held out on you or would only kiss and make out with you and stop it there.

A lot were puritanical. Refusing to suck cock was very common. I had young women who wouldn’t let me eat their pussies because they thought is was gross. Pain during sex is not uncommon and they sometimes ask for lube of some sort due to this.

A lot are virgins who don’t want to give it up. Some will fuck you once or twice and then just make out and refuse to go further after that. One 18 year old girl did that because I wasn’t rapey enough. She said her other guys just blew past her when she said no and basically forced her to have sex. So some of these girls even force you to be a rapist if you want to get laid. Some are virgins and want to stay that way.

Girls that age are also extremely moody, temperamental, and nutty. The last two I dated were both suicidal. Older women are so much more stable.

The girls got angry at me many times when I was with them, usually over ridiculous nonsense. It’s not like they’re going to go along with everything you suggest.

Long Term Serious Mental Illness Seems to Freeze Personal Development at Whatever Age the Illness Hit

Polar Bear: I work a humble job myself and my father was a postal worker. I’m no genius, it’s an attribute but possibly also a double edge sword. I grew up with a genius next door neighbor and met a few others along the way.

They’re odd ducks for sure. The outsider thing rings especially true. I don’t see many with families. I was the king of the neighborhood in a sense, and my genius neighbor struggled at many things in life.

I’m not sure if you want to be a genius, speaking from the point of view of one. Four of the five geniuses in my family never made much money at all in life.

Two are on disability due to long term (35-40 years) mental illness (mood disorders – bipolar disorder). They both got ill early in life, one at 17 and the other at 19, and I hate to say it, but they never really grew up enough as they should have. I think that when these illnesses hit very early in life and they never go away, it seems like personal development ends up arrested at whenever the illness struck.

In some ways, it’s like at least one of them is stuck at 17. This person in their 50’s (mostly mania) is a permanent teenager. They moved back home at age 39 and lived there until age 55. They just got out of jail and at one time, they were homeless for a few months. They have a modest criminal record (~10 arrests?) for mostly minor stuff, usually during an episode.

During a  manic episode this person will lose everything they have. If they have a car, they will lose the car. If they have an apartment, they will lose the apartment. If they have a job, they will lose the job and not be able to get another one that lasts more than a few days.

They burn through whatever money they have and pawn their valuable possessions. When it ends, their life is in wreckage. They’ve lost just about everything they had.

They never admitted they were ill so they always denied being ill or having an episode and just blamed other people for everything. In the last year, they have started to admit they are ill, but they won’t admit it to me and I can’t bring it up because they will get angry. They’re on meds for the first time but the meds don’t completely control the illness.

The other one is also in their 50’s (mostly depression) and has been quite immature most of their life. They have been hospitalized several times and they seem to like being in the hospital. They have been on meds for 35 years and got bad side effects, including diabetes and weight gain, from the meds, neither of which went away.

Every time they had a crisis, they would collapse and fall apart and call my Mom screaming to come deal with it because they can’t cope with any crisis on their own. I’m not sure if they can cope with crises now.

You still have to watch every single thing you say to them because they have a list of subjects that will make them blow up and throw a mini shitfit 300,000 lines long.

I have to think about everything I say to them to make sure I don’t mention any of the banned subjects. With some banned subjects, you can’t even say the word. For instance, rape and child molestation cannot be mentioned at all, ever, for any reason. They are always shutting down conversations because half the stuff in the world upsets them and makes them throw a mini shitfit.

They spend a very good part of their time at my Mom’s house nowadays although they have their own apartment. They’re both females so it’s no big deal. My Mom is going to move soon, and they will go live with my Mom. They have been on their own since age 35 though, I will give them that. They do like to be on their own.

None of the people mentioned her read this site since I moved, so I’m not so worried about talking about them here. No one who reads this will ever figure out who they really are, their real names, where they live, anything at all about them. Even people who know me won’t be able to connect me to them.

Why Male to Female Transsexuals (Transwomen) Say That They Menstruate and Have Periods

Male to female (MtF) transsexuals (or transwomen*) have surgery and then they have what looks like a gaping hole for a fake vagina where their penis used to be there, and not a pretty gaping hole either. It typically looks absolutely disgusting, like something you would see in a surgeon’s operating room.

It is basically a wound and your body thinks it is a wound the whole time you have this fake vagina. They have to “dilate” their fake holes, sometimes for up to four hours a day. This is because the body thinks it is wound and keeps trying to heal it shut.

Apparently there’s a fair amount of bleeding that can occur with all of this dilating and with  the body trying to heal  this fake vagina.

As I understand it, this bleeding is what these transwomen refer to as their periods.

A number of transwomen also say that they get period cramps and pains “at a certain time every month.” Therefore, they claim that they have periods. That can’t be possible.

This whole matter is so stupid I don’t know whether to laugh or cry.

*Please note that transwomen are not real women in any way, shape, or form, and they will never be real women at least as long as I am on this Earth. Nevertheless, I will refer to them as transwomen out of courtesy because this is what they prefer to be called.

These people are all crazy and seriously troubled anyway, and I don’t see why I should add to their emotional pain and trauma. These transwomen are human beings. Crazy human beings, sure, but human beings nonetheless. I work a lot with “crazy” people as a counselor, and I don’t hate anyone for being crazy. I tend to feel sorry for them instead. Nevertheless, I don’t understand why the rest of us need to go along with the delusions of crazy people.

Game/PUA: Late Middle Aged Men (age 55-62) Dating Young Women (age 18-28): A Rundown

I am currently 62 years old, and in the past two years I have dated a number of women from 18-28.

One 18 year old totally fell in love with me, and there was a rollercoaster love affair that ended. She had never been kissed before she met me.

I had one date with a 19 year old girl, and at the end of the date (she spent most of the day at my place), she asked me if she could move into my place. WTH. Is it normal for a woman have one fucking date with a guy and then ask to move in? Because it’s never happened to before even once in my life.

However, getting women this age, or even ones in their 20’s, at my age is extremely difficult for any man of my age, not just me. It was a lot easier when I was younger, even in my 40’s. Face it, the vast majority of 18-19 year old girls do not wish to date men my age. They might have a Daddy fetish, but I doubt if many have a Grampa fetish.

Furthermore, for all the older women panicking out there, I hardly know any other man my age around here who has pulled this off. I’m almost the only one. I figure the vast majority of men my age could never pull this off. Most don’t even try. Thing is, I am not an ordinary man though.

A lot of the girls I dated had huge Daddy issues but not all of them. You would be surprised how many girls who do this have good relationships with their fathers, so it’s not all about that.

I do remember that one had a father who left her at age 13, and another had a very hostile father who she hated.

I had another who never knew her father and had been molested by her uncle at an early age of 12. Apparently this turns a certain number of lot of the girls who get molested like this into huge sluts, and a lot of them end up with massive older man fetishes.

Actually turning into a massive slut, stripper, porn star, or prostitute is a pretty typical adult reaction to getting molested as girls. If you read studies about child abuse, this is listed as a common sequalae for girls who get molested. Don’t ask me what’s going on in their heads.

I guess they are reliving what happened to them when they were girls and older men were having sex with them.

It’s fun to have a young woman at my age though. You turn into her mentor and you end up teaching her all about life and everything in it! I do not mean sexual stuff, though you usually end up tutoring them in that area too. I am a former schoolteacher.

It’s such a delight to see a young women learning so many new things every day – new words, concepts, facts about everything. You can also see her gaining a lot of wisdom because you are explaining a lot of things about life, especially social issues, that they don’t understand, and you are explaining to them how it works. You get a lot of, “Ohhhhhh, I see. Ok, now I get it. Ahhhhh, ok.”

They usually think I am very wise or smart, and they even say so. An 18 year old girl told me after we broke up and were still friends:

Ever since I met you, everyone I meet seems stupid.

I’ll take that compliment.

You can watch them climb this vast learning curve right in front of your eyes. When the girl or young woman leaves you (and she will leave), she is ahead of most of her peers because she understands life so much better than everyone else her age who are still figuring it out on their own.

The girls and young women complain that men their age are pigs and lousy or rapey in bed (they call them fuckboys), and they say I’m not like that at all. They say that these young men only care about their own pleasure and care nothing whatsoever about the woman’s pleasure. It’s all about getting off.

Some young men are freaked out and take off if the young woman acts slutty. Others complain that young men either date rape or grey rape them.

I don’t really care what people think about the  fact that I do this, and honestly other men usually treat me like a hero or a God when I pull this off. The respect they give me is incredible.

A few are outraged. One man hung up on me and ended our friendship when he heard I was dating women this age. He’s befriended me again, but it’s not the same. He’s a physician aged 55. Physicians are very status- and social rules-conscious.

There’s two kinds of women – real women and feminists. I love real women. Feminists can go pound sand, and that’s when I am in a kind-hearted mood.

A lot of women of all ages- real women that is, not feminists – actually react pretty well to me doing this and say something along the lines of:

How do you do it, stud?

Even women my age are impressed.

Hey if you still got it, go for it!…Hey, some men have just got it.

Of course there’s a few people who don’t dig it, and I do get called pedophile sometimes, mostly by millennial fucktards, including a large percentage of “men” that age, but I don’t care. What the Hell is wrong with this fagged out and cucked out generation of “men”, anyway? They’re all feminists! I cant’ believe what pussies so many millennial men are. I don’t get it. Were they fed soy milk as babies? Did someone put estrogen in the water?

To any millennial guys reading this, please don’t take offense. I’m not accusing you of acting this way. In fact, if you’re reading here, you probably don’t act this way at all. I’m just pointing out that there’s something wrong with a lot of men in your generation, that’s all.

I still get a lot of dating offers from young women around this age – usually from 5-20 a week – but they almost all want a sugar daddy, and I’m not rich. There’s not a lot of young women who will date me for free. And being a sugar daddy costs from $1,000-2,000/month for her “allowance.” Usually she gives him sex in return, but in some cases, she doesn’t even give him that.

The Myth of Illegal Drugs Frying Your Brain and Permafried People

In response to Jason’s post here about drug use frying your brain, I have written this response. In general, the notion that the use of illegal drugs will fry your brain or make you permafried even after you quit is nonsense. In general, once you quit you go back to the intelligence and sanity level you were at before you started. Few people get permanently lowered intelligence or permanent mental illness from former drug use.

Most illegal drugs do not cause any permanent damage to your brain that would affect you permanently after you quit.

In all of my years using drugs, I have met 10,000’s of drug users and I never met one person who had used so much drugs that they were “fried” in the sense that they were permanently stupid or crazy after they quit using.

Cocaine

There may be some consequences far down the road – say, with Parkinson’s.

Jason’s article discusses an increased risk of Parkinson’s in former cocaine users. But it’s not really due to brain damages so much as changes in a certain receptor that make someone more vulnerable to a toxin. That’s not the same thing as having a fried brain.

I knew a heavy cocaine user who appeared to have neurological problems from the drug. But I am not sure if it persisted after he quit, if he ever did quit. But he’s the only person I’ve ever met like that, and even he wasn’t fried at all. He was still very intelligent and completely sane. However, he did appear to have some sort of brain damage. Whether it was permanent or not is not known.

LSD

I have known people who took LSD up to 700 times, and I know a number who took LSD 300 times. LSD doesn’t damage your brain anyway. It can cause some changes in the visual system due to permanent changes in serotonin receptors, but that just causes some perceptual problems, and this is mostly in people who have taken it 50+ times. It doesn’t change effect you in any way that changes the way you think or feel, in other words, it doesn’t make you stupid or nuts.

There are some very heavy former LSD users who seem to have permanent hallucinations, but those people took a lot of acid over a short period of time – like way, way too much acid. It’s not known what’s going on with them, but I suppose they are permafried in a sense.

LSD is a dangerous drug.

Cannabis

I know many people who have been smoking pot for 10, 20, or even 30 years, and there’s nothing wrong with any of them. You wouldn’t think there was anything wrong with them if you met them. They’re not damaged at all.

The pot lowering IQ discussed in Jason’s piece is only for use before you are 18. If you start using at age 18 or after, there’s no effect on IQ. People under 18 need to be very careful about pot because it can indeed lower their IQ’s a bit.

Pot doesn’t give you schizophrenia, period. The most it can do is trigger it if you are already vulnerable, but even then, most of those people would have gotten it anyway. But it can definitely bring it on sooner than it would have otherwise.

The rate of schizophrenia has been flat for 60 years, all through the 1960’s, 70’s, 80’s, 90’s, 2000’s and 2010’s, and all sorts of drug use rates for different drugs skyrocketed at various times in that period. In other words, neither cannabis nor any other drug is going to give you schizophrenia with one exception discussed below.

MDMA

MDMA is a very dangerous drug and it can definitely cause physical damage to your brain. It permanently lowers scores on a few aspects of intelligence tests such as vocabulary, but you mostly can’t notice any changes and there do not appear to be any changes in mental stability. In general, it doesn’t make you stupid or nuts.

However, there are some people called e-tards out there who took a lot of MDMA very frequently over relatively short of periods of time, and these people appear to be permafried. Mostly they seem a bit stupid.

However, I have heard that even these effects of MDMA go away after ~7-8 years if you stay away from the drug.

 

Speed is another matter but even that tends to clear up after you quit. There are some very heavy methamphetamine users, especially people who shot the drug, who have developed an illness that looks a lot like or possibly is paranoid schizophrenia.

There are some recorded cases out of Japan, and a friend told me about another case here in California. This is not a common outcome and even with all the heavy meth abuse that is going on nowadays, you don’t hear much about people being permafried in the sense that they become permanently mentally ill with paranoid schizophrenia.

Heavy Polydrug and Alcohol Abuse for Decades (30 years)

I have heard of one person who used huge amounts of drugs and drank very heavily over many years, starting as an adolescent. They are now off of everything, and they have a rather poor short-term memory and forget stuff a lot, but other than that, they are still extremely intelligent.

They are also a bit suspicious and paranoid, but not at the level of a paranoid psychosis. I suppose this man is permafried in a sense, but if you met him, you would not appear stupid or crazy.

Conclusion

Bottom line is a lot of that stuff can mess you up pretty bad while you are on it so you seem stupid, crazy, or even brain damaged. But most if not all of that tends to clear up when you quit. Permafried people who are permanently stupid or nuts from heavy drug use must be awfully rare because I haven’t met one in my entire life. The fried brains and permafried nonsense is mostly mythology.