The thing is though that many artists of all types are crazy to one degree or another. Trust me, I have spent a fair portion of my life intensely hanging around large groups of artists, writers, and musicians, and most of them are nuts in one way or another.
Actually they’re all crazy in different ways, but they’re still all crazy.
Writers and tend to be quite self-destructive. A lot are depressives and boy do they drink. They’re introverted but not as introverted as the poets or especially the artists.
Artists are just very shy and neurotic. A lot are depressives. An artist party is 100 people in a house and no one is talking to anyone because they’re all too shy. It’s actually pretty funny. I went to a number of them.
Musicians are very self-destructive, but they’re not neurotic at all – more like wild and crazy extroverts. Some musicians are depressives, but that aspect of them tends to be more hidden behind the wild partying exterior. Still, musicians often seem to be battling deep pain. They love to drink and hey, don’t forget the dope! Musicians and drugs are like peanut butter and jelly.
Poets are way crazy, totally neurotic or worse, manic-depressive or more commonly just depressive, plus a lot of them really drink hard. I’d say the poets are the nuttiest of them all. Are you sort of a weird, offbeat, neurotic, introverted person who doesn’t fit in anywhere and is rejected by most Normies? Head on over to your local poetry reading. You’ll be right in style there. Most of them are just as nuts as you are. Don’t feel bad.
Furthermore, many artist types are lousy to terrible people.
Shakespeare was a monster as a human being. But that’s not what we remember him and the others for. It doesn’t matter that Shakespeare was a mean old miser.
All that matters is that he was probably the greatest writer of English prose in history, probably still unsurpassed to this very day. That’s all that matters. Artists stand on their art, the only thing that lasts. That they may have been crappy people is lamentable, but it that’s not why we remember them and ultimately it’s simply not important.
Flying Burrito Brothers, “Sing It Back Home”on Sleepless Nights, 1977.
Gram Parsons and the Flying Burritos covering Merle Haggard’s great song. This song was recorded in early 1970 when Gram Parsons was still with the band. The songs on this album were intended to be released for a new album that never got released. Actually these songs were considered to be simple studio dabblings that were never intended for any finished product release.
The Flying Burrito Brothers were one of the greatest bands of the 20th Century, but almost no one has ever heard of them. Their first two albums featured the great Gram Parsons. After that, they fired him and he went on to issue a couple of solo albums before he OD’d on morphine in Joshua Tree National Park in 1973. Dead to soon.
Why do all the best ones leave us too soon? It’s almost as if they are doomed to die young – flash bright like a shooting star and then burn out before 30. What happens? Do they burn too fast? Too fast for life?
A lot of artists are nuts. That’s part of the problem. Art is all tied up in various forms of insanity and lots of artists are crazy in all sorts of ways, in particularly, self-destruction.
No one quite knows why this is, but being an artist is the ultimate anti-Normie act. The artist is giving the finger to the Normie world every minute he is alive and producing great art. He’s a permanent outsider. An outsider’s life is painful, and many artists live lives of intense pain. Perhaps the pain is necessary to produce great art. If we were all perma-happy Pollyanna Normies, what sort of great art would we produce? Anything.
Anyway, life is painful. And it’s not easy. You would think that life would be quite simple, but it’s not. In part this is because we are not completely rational. If I were completely rational, my life would be a lot easier, but instead I’m fucked in the head, so life is a bit of a chore. A happy chore but a chore nevertheless.
As I showed you with that song by that German gothic band earlier, it often doesn’t even matter if you can understand the words to a song.
A great song can be sung in a foreign language and it matters not. Because the glory and beauty of music goes far beyond the pure meaning of whatever lyrics are being sung. Often the words are beautiful even if you can’t understand a word!
How does that work? I suppose you don’t have to understand any particular work of art for it to be great. I had no idea at all what was happening most of the time in Thomas Pynchon’s Gravity’s Rainbow, but it didn’t even matter! I read along anyway, and the fact that I had no idea of a plot took away nothing from my feeling that that was one of the greatest novels ever written in English. It was a great story! Who cares what the confounded plot was?
Perhaps the best way to see this is to posit that art and its beauty (for art is nothing without its beauty) and its affect on one’s mind and soul goes far beyond a simple understanding (which we can call “intelligibility”) of the work. It’s affecting you on a whole different level than ordinary intelligibility, perhaps on a higher level of perception where meaning and intelligibility doesn’t even matter. All that matters instead is what I might call “pure perception” and the experience of such. All that matters is the emotional reaction to the work of art.
By the way there is a whole subfield of philosophy dedicated to the study of art and its beauty called Aesthetics. It’s pretty interesting stuff. Even the Greeks had a lot of interesting things to say about Aesthetics. James Joyce deals with this subject in Portrait of an Artists as a Young Man, (highly recommended – the easiest Joyce novel to read) quoting St. Augustine, the great Christian mystic as part of his argument.
Augustine (City of God) was far more than a theologian. He was an incredible philosopher, and both philosophy and theology advanced dramatically after his thinking was published. Pretty good for a guy living in the 1200’s. I need to check out Augustine some time. I heard it’s great stuff, especially City of God.
RL: A naked 7 year old girl standing in the woods is legal. She has to be posed in some erotic position for it to be illegal.
Jason: Never trust the law cause it’s vague. Even the laws making adult porn legal are vague. If you’re in a Bible Belt or semi-Bible Belt state, it could be a scary ordeal. So the best rule of thumb is to avoid cops like Jews avoiding the SS.
Case in point: I’ve read people put in jail over anime of all things. That stuff and the toon CP are not real, but the laws are so vague and in some countries (Canada, Australia) that matter is explicitly illegal.
Anime CP and cartoon CP? No one’s ever gone down on that in the US. Where did you hear about people going down on that? Did they go down on it in some other country? However, the US has gone after some of the artists who draw the toon CP, which I think is totally messed up. The FBI says toon CP is legal, no one will go after you for accessing or even possessing toon CP, but the guys who draw CP go to prison. WTF?
Jason is correct. The CP laws are insanely vague. Supposedly there are guidelines and some stuff is pretty much legal, other stuff is definitely illegal, and apparently there is material in between, whatever the Hell that means. As I pointed out, a 7 year old naked girl standing on a beach with her naked family has long been said to be perfectly legal. She has to be posed erotically, typically with “lascivious display of the genitalia” as the law puts it, for a photo like that to be CP.
Nevertheless, pigs have gone after parents for taking nude pics of their little 2-3 year old kids romping in the bathtub. You got that right. There were attempts to prosecute these parents. The parents had sent the photos to a photo developer to be developed, and some moralfag employee at the developing business had noticed the photos and called the cops like an idiot.
The pigs were moralfags too for even going after these poor parents in the first place. I believe all of the parents were eventually let off, but they were put through a lot of Hell before their names were cleared. I believe their names were even published in the paper.
The CP laws are insane. Stuff is perfectly legal until the day it’s not.
The Blackcat scans were a “clothed model” series of very young girls, maybe 11-12 years old, posing fully clothed but wearing very dirty outfits and posed in extremely erotic poses.
I have seen a lot of those scans, and I really don’t like them. I find them disturbing and upsetting for some reason. They feel creepy to me.
Those are children – little girls – and I don’t like the idea of sexualizing children and little girls. Little girls don’t even have a sex drive.
I know this is controversial, but I am certain that it is true. No children have actual sex drives in the way that grown men and women do. Pedophiles insist that children have raging sex drives and are dying to have sex with the pedos, but to me this is just a huge pedo lie.
I did some research to look into this. By the way, this research was very hard to do as the topic of child sexuality – even the fact that it apparently does not exist – is so completely verboten and stigmatized that almost no one writes about it. ]
If you are interested, the actual female sex drive comes out ~4-5 months before menarche, which nowadays is 13 years old. At least that was my conclusion. So the onset of the female sex drive in the USA right now is 13. You wonder why your 13 year old daughter is boy-crazy. Well, there ya go.
Teenage girls? Fine. They’re already sexualized. Just look at them. They’re sexualized on account of merely existing in the manner that they do. Plus most of them have raging sex drives nowadays, and a majority of even young teenage girls are are masturbating like maniacs. This seems to be a new thing. I don’t remember girls or even women in my generation being like this. Is this the early sexualization that everyone talks about? What’s up with that? Is it all the online porn?
I realize that the Blackcat girls are very pretty, but to me an 11-12 year old girl, no matter how beautiful she is, is simply not a sexual object. She’s beautiful in the way that a waterfall or rainbow is beautiful. Ever wanted to fuck a rainbow? See what I mean?
The girls in the Blackcat scans were all gotten into doing the sessions by their Moms. Both the Moms and the girls were impoverished, typically from rural Russia.
The men who did the Blackcat scans had researched the law very carefully, and at the time they started their business, all indications were that this stuff was perfectly legal. It was borderline CP – sure – but lots of stuff is borderline CP. There’s borderline CP all over the Net – big deal.
Even the FBI said it was legal. The FBI said, “They’ve got their clothes on, so it’s legal.” Makes sense, right?
That was the known guideline, so the webpage owner went up and set up his Blackcat website, and the photographer took all the Blackcat photos on the basis that LE had said they were legal. Then one day some pigs woke up on the wrong side of the bed and decided the Blackcat scans were not legal after all. Instead some pigs in Florida decided to interpret the law in such a way that it was actually illegal! Even though the FBI said it was legal!
Florida courts went after the guy who ran the webpage (he was a Jew of course – duh!) and the photographer, and both were put in prison. There had been millions of men visiting that site and downloading that stuff, so millions of men had Blackcat stuff on their drives, but not a thing was done to any of them.
The girls were 100% willing. No girl was harmed. After the photographer went to prison, all of the former girl models, now grown women, raised an uproar, saying that they were not harmed by the shoots, and they were very happy that they did them. The Moms all joined in and reiterated the points the daughters had made. All of the former girl models and their Moms had nothing but good things to say about the photographer.
I guess he was not creepy, and he was doing the whole thing respectfully and by the book. I believe he went to great lengths to make sure that both the girls and their Moms were 100% ok with the shoots. The former girl models made Youtube videos about how outraged they were that the photographer went down. At one time there were ~20 Youtube videos from different women, all former child models, decrying the photographer’s conviction.
What do you make of the stereotype that Chinese are greedy amoral worker drones with no aesthetic taste and little emotion?
Lot of truth to those things. Let’s take these one by one here. We previously discussed amorality and stoicism or lack of emotion, so let us look at greediness and lack of aesthetic taste. I will also look at Jews as many Chinese stereotypes are Jewish stereotypes as well.
The Chinese are white collar criminals, and they are amoral in that sense. Very similar to the Jews. It may be the case that any group with IQ’s markedly higher than the majority will not only grab most of the money under capitalism but will also be profoundly ruthless and amoral in how they go about it, often to the point of basically being a race of white collar criminals, which is what I would call Chinese and Jews.
Both Chinese and Jews are viewed as being fanatically money-oriented, materialistic, and aggressively driven to succeed at all costs. As the Jews have their Jewish mothers and uncles with pinky rings, so the Chinese have the newly created Tiger Moms
Lack of Aesthetic Taste
You can make the lack of aesthetic taste argument about all those other Chinese-influenced societies. The Chinese or Japanese artist is deliberately spare and seems at first glance to be drawing excessively, shall we say, modest paintings. It is as if the Asian artist feels ashamed of artistic talent and is deliberately dumbing down in his art so as to not appear better than others.
Nevertheless, artists have told me that Chinese and Japanese art is excellent in its own spare, somewhat minimalist, and certainly modest sense.
Both Chinese and Japanese have taken to modern literature, the Japanese in particular in terms of fiction. But both races have early traces of fiction in the form of epic tales that are basically novels extending back centuries, even to 1000. Think of The Tale of the Genji or Water Margin for Japanese and Chinese respectively.
Japanese invented a very interesting, spare, minimal, “shy”, and modest or self-effacing form of poetry called the haiku, which in its own way reaches to the peaks of literature.
The Japanese also took up Western or rock music. Many excellent rock bands of all sorts have come out of Japan. The Chinese, like the Italians, have been entertaining themselves via operas forever.
Rahul: Robert, Feynman didn’t win the Nobel Prize in Physics because he had a 190 Physics IQ or because he had a 125 IQ. He won it because he was ardently passionate about Physics and Math, and he contributed enough to the betterment of using Physics to serve humanity. That’s why he won the Prize.
I don’t mean to be rude when I say this Robert (hell, this is the case with pretty much any disagreement I have, which is a lot), but this comment was somewhat insulting to Richard Feynman. Really, you’re attributing it to his 190 Physics IQ (which I doubt)?
He was passionate about it and he contributed to using physics to better humanity because he had one of the most brilliant physics minds ever recorded. It’s not insulting to say Feynman had a 190 IQ in Physics. In fact, I bet if I knew him and I said that to him, he would probably laugh and say I was right. The 190 physics IQ is literally proven by having some of the highest physics scores ever recorded on various tests. If you go around the Net, everywhere they talk about Feynman’s IQ, they say just this. No one anywhere says he did it by trying really hard.
You do not get one of the highest Physics scores ever recorded on a widely given test by trying really hard. Fuck that. You get that by being one of the smartest and highest Physics IQ men in history in Physics.
Why are you such an IQ denier? Have you lived in America your whole life?
Because in this idiot, insane culture, the line is, “Anyone can do anything” and “Intelligence doesn’t matter.” And in America, there is a complete denial of intelligence itself. This is shown by contempt for the very concept. In America, “anyone can do anything they want if they give it enough effort” and often you cannot even acknowledge that human beings differ in intelligence at all or that this matters in any way.
I talk like this a lot because intelligence is interesting to me, and I get very politely shut down (they simply disagree with me very politely, mostly by dismissing my argument with a smile) all time.
This Idiocracy culture is so infuriating. We acknowledge frankly intellectual gifts in a whole range of things, even athletics, where “physical intelligence” forms a large part of “athletic genius.” Haven’t you heard athletes who say things like, “Baseball is 90% mental.”? However, your average American usually insists that great athletes simply tried real hard.
We often speak of artistic and musical genius and the implication is that it was inborn, though you often run into resistance to that with countless Americans implying that musical and artistic geniuses simply “tried really hard.” Americans simply refuse to believe in the concept of inborn intelligence or intellectual strengths in any way, and that is when they acknowledge that intelligence itself even exists at all. Many, perhaps most Americans simply insist that “there is no such thing as intelligence,” which is a stunning statement for a human being to utter. Most infuriating of all is that the smartest people are the worst intelligence deniers. Even more infuriating is that the more leftwing people get, they more openly hostile they are to the very concept of intelligence, especially if it is inborn. All I have to say is that an American Left culture that has extreme hatred for the very notion that intelligence exists at all is not one I want to be a part of. It doesn’t sound like one that’s going to be very successful either, or if it is successful, I fear for the country that ends up being run by these overeducated fools.
You start getting down below 100 or especially 90 IQ, they generally agree that some humans are definitely way smarter than other humans. At that level, people are often awestruck by very smart people.
That’s if they are not too stupid. Truly stupid people around 80 IQ often can’t even seem to grasp the concept of intelligence at all or refuse to see how it could be important in any way. This is because they are literally too stupid to even recognize intelligence for what it is.
Further, if you start talking about intelligence even related to jobs in the US, you get shut down almost immediately with, “Oh no, you don’t have to be smart to do that. Anyone can do that.” You even get shut down if you imply that some people are smarter than other people.
Sometimes I talk about how I can tell someone is smart by simply looking at their faces while I interact with them. I usually get completely dismissed when I say that. I can tell how smart someone is by looking into their eyes, listening to how they talk (for instance, speed, comprehension, response speed), and mostly looking for, more than anything else, simply speed of response. Smart people are simply faster than other human beings. And it correlates directly with IQ.
I had a girlfriend with a 140 IQ once, and she was one of the fastest women I have ever known. She got my jokes, bam, immediately, as soon as they hit her brainjust like that. And she had a sharp response to the joke almost instantly. She was so fast it almost seemed like she started laughing before the joke was even over. I had another girlfriend with a ~115 IQ, and while she was definitely intelligent, there’s no way on Earth she was that lightning fast. And I met a woman with an IQ of 156 once who was literally the fastest woman I have ever met in my life. She was faster than the 140 woman, knew more stuff, and picked up completely new topics she knew nothing about very quickly. She would ask me, “What is that?” about some concept that she had no idea what it was. I would start to explain it, and it never took more than 3-5 minutes before she had gobbled up the whole concept and had gotten the gist of it like an expert. I have never met a woman who understood brand new things with so little explanation.
She might even have been faster than I am. Her IQ was ~10 points higher. I didn’t feel outclassed at all though. We were basically on the same level. But I had definitely met my match. She was a real challenge to talk to, but I love challenges.
ZE: Is there any way to sustain emotional self-expression?
I think most people do it anyway because most folks seem to be pretty emotional. They go around expressing their emotions all the time anyway, unless you are getting at something different from quotidian emotionalizing here.
For me, to sustain it, I would have to keep writing because writing expresses my emotions best.
Humor is a good way to express emotions. As long as you are communicating with humans, you can make humorous comments that express emotion very well.
It also helps to be a systematizing thinker.
The more you can systematize, the more wisdom you obtain, and the best emotional expression is in the form of wisdom.
And then humor.
Where’s this guy been all my life? The name sounds familiar, but I didn’t really know anything about him. Another Generation of ’98 writer who barely made it through the Spanish Civil War.
Federico Garcia Lorca, the doomed gay poet, one of the finest poets of the 20th Century, of course was assassinated in this war, but he was from the next generation of Spanish writers, the Generation of ’27. They were much more avant garde than the ’98’ers.
The Generation of ’98 were a whole new crop of Spanish writers who popped up at the turn of the century in Spain. Spain was still a monarchy back then and these were times of fervent. The monarchy was trying to balance between the desire of the people to modernize the humanize their country and the desires of the Church conservatives to keep things as static as they were.
At the same time, in 1898, Spain was reeling from its defeat in several wars around the globe. Thousands of Spaniards were dead, and Spain lost all of its colonies. This was a time of great upheaval in Spain. The ’98’ers attacked traditional culture and the monarchy which they say as conformist and undemocratic. In this sense, they were like the liberal protest movements that arose in Germany after World War 1 who attacked German culture and ways of thinking in the light of their painful defeat in the war.
These liberal movements were met with a conservative backlash or mostly demobbed soldiers who formed gangs called the Brownshirts who fought socialists and communists in the streets of Germany. These conservatives felt that the liberals had “stabbed the country in the back” and been traitorous during the war, leading to the nation’s defeat. One of these demobbed soldiers was an angry, wounded soldier named Adolf Hitler and it was from this Right vs Left firestorm in the streets that the Nazi God of Destruction arose a decade later. The Phoenix rising from the ashes, the regeneration of the illustrious nation of blood and soul, which is fascism in a nutshell. Fascism can best be seen as palingetic revolution of the Right. The word palingetic brings to mind the Phoenix rises to glory from the ashes of defeat.
Baroja was a liberal like most of that generation. He grew up in the Basque Country. He wrote a number of trilogies, including The Sea, The Cities, The Struggle for Life, The Basque Country and a few others. The Struggle for Life is a gritty, harsh trilogy about life in the slums of Madrid. John Dos Passos was very fond of this series. Probably his most famous book is The Tree of Knowledge. Baroja was a pessimist and a nihilist who soured on life at a young age.
I do not mind reading downbeat authors though, even if I am an optimist. Really the optimistic and pessimistic views of life are both true and equally valid.
Baroja was influenced by Nietzsche, but below almost looks like Heidegger. I like the elaborate, ornate, very descriptive prose of the 19th Century. I love the long, fancy sentences where the tail of the sentence almost seems to be the head. I don’t mind getting to the end of a Henry James sentence, commas and all, and then wondering what the start of the sentence was about. It’s fun to decipher fancy writing. People don’t write like this much anymore as it is considered to be too elaborate and difficult for its own sake. I believe some of the finest writing in English was done in the 19th Century though. I can’t get enough of those $64,000 sentences. They’re so good you could almost take them to the bank.
Most of Baroja has not yet been translated into English, though he has been famous in Spain for a century. Hemingway was heavily influenced by Baroja, although this fact is little known.
Isn’t that some fine writing?
The individual is the only real thing in nature and in life. Neither the species, the genus, nor the race, actually exists; they are abstractions, terminologies, scientific devices, useful as syntheses but not entirely exact. By means of these devices we can discuss and compare; they constitute a measure for our minds to use, but have no external reality. Only the individual exists through himself and for himself. I am, I live, is the sole thing a man can affirm.
The categories and divisions arranged for classification are like the series of squares an artist places over a drawing to copy it by. The lines of the squares may cut the lines of the sketch; but they will cut them, not in reality but only in the artist’s eye. In humanity, as in all of nature, the individual is the one thing. Only individuality exists in the realm of life and in the realm of spirit.
Pio Baroja, Caesar or Nothing, 1903
I am sort of getting tired of answering questions about my employment that I get from haters every day. Here is a statement on the matter from another site a while back.
I live off a trust fund, and I also work as a therapist. I make some money writing and I do a few other things like brokering deals between consultants and clients, things like that. The reason I do not work is due to health. I am not in good enough health to work. Otherwise I have been working or in school my whole life. My last job title was Linguist/Cultural Anthropologist.
I do not use any government programs, so I am mystified at people always saying I am on welfare or collect a government check. I have no idea where they came up with that idea.
Here are my income sources in the last year or so:
Trust fund. Had $700,000 at the start, but now it is a lot less. It is a spendthrift trust, so I am locked out of it. They have always given me right around a poverty level wage only because my grandfather wanted me to survive but he also wanted to force me to work, so he made it small enough so I could survive but would not live comfortably. The idea was to force me to work because he did not want me kicking back my whole life as a trust fund kid. It was made spendthrift because he figured that if I had control over it, I would blow through the thing in a few years as I was a bit of a spendthrift, party boy and playboy as a young man. Counseling. Peer counselor. I focus mostly on one condition, a DSM anxiety disorder, which, frankly, I am an expert on. I work with clients all over the world, mostly in the US but also in Chile, El Salvador, Canada, Australia, the UK, Ireland, Germany, Norway, Sweden, the Netherlands, Spain, and Switzerland. I also work with problems in living, deep stuff (exploring your deep self or childhood issues) and growth stuff (learning how to grow to become a better and more functional human being).
People often break down in tears and start crying right in the middle of sessions. Happens all the time. I deal with suicidal people all the time. In fact, I lost one client to suicide already. I have had clients who were attempting suicide while I was working with them. It can be hard to deal with. I have no degrees, credentials or licenses in this field, but in California, you do not need one. Just hang out your shingle and call yourself “Counselor” and say come talk to me about your problems. I do not get a lot of business, but I do get some. Considering that I lack all of the things you usually need to do this work, I am amazed that I get any work at all.
I read a lot of books on this subject and I have been studying psychology for 40 years. I had decades of therapy. I read up on counseling psychology and mental illness all the time so I am pretty much self-taught. You would be amazed how many jobs you can do simply by teaching yourself how to do them. It’s a myth that you need degrees, credentials,. etc. to do this or that job. Just teach yourself.
The longer I do this, the better I get at it. It is a stressful job though. I do one 1 hour session and I feel like I just ran a mile. I sometimes have to go lie down. The clients are in so much psychic pain that it seems to leak out of them and into my body. If you are empathetic at all this is going to happen. Brokering deals between graphic artists and clients. I put the clients and artists together, negotiate prices, etc. and then take a cut for myself. Conflict resolution/arbitration. In cases of graphic artists and clients where they have come to a standstill and nothing is getting done. An example: client has spent $~1,000 and is not satisfied with the product. Artist has stopped speaking to the client or returning his phone calls or emails. Client sent work back for endless revisions, and eventually the artist just had it. I wade in there, talk to both sides, figure out the nature of the dispute and try to settle the matter so that everyone is happy. I am actually quite good at this. Webpage design/graphics. Mostly graphics. Working with graphics for people who need websites done. Work with graphic artists. Graphics editor for books. I was recently a graphics editor for a book. I was in charge of maps. I worked with a graphic artist and told him what to label the areas and where to shade in the areas we needed to shade in. We used a lot of sources, all of which were wrong. It was a great big mess, but it was fun to put together the jigsaw puzzle. Webpage design consulting. Consult with webpage designers who are having problems with their pages to fix their issues. Selling information. As crazy as it sounds, I have actually made money doing that. I have some pretty much secret information about a few things that a lot of people want but few people have access to. An example would be a geographical location of an unusual place that a lot of people want to get to, but the location is a closely guarded secret. So I ell directions to this location and then work with them afterwards to help them reach the site, etc. Yes, you can actually sell information! Isn’t that crazy? Medical counseling. Work with heterosexual men who are worried that they have contracted HIV from sexual contact with women. I am an expert on this type of transmission and have been studying it for over 30 years now. I know more about it than most physicians.
They tell me the situation, and I lay out the odds that they may have contracted the disease based on their situation. I also tell them how HIV is acquired from women and tell them about the various surveys that have been done. I also have a lot of percentages, facts and figures about this type of transmission, like say 1% chance after 40 encounters. I tell them about all the different types of testing, the accuracy, etc. Then I follow them through any tests that they need to take in the next few months. And if they have anxiety or obsessive issues about possibly contracting this illness, I work with them on that, as I am very good at calming down or talking down people who are in the midst of anxiety episodes. I do it all the time. Author. Just published my first book, or chapter in a book I should say. It is an 80 page chapter. I am supposed to be paid for this at some point. Book was published in Turkey in a university press. Took me 500 hours or three months work at part time. I worked with professors from all over the world on this project. I also had to go through two rather brutal peer reviews. I also came up with the name for this book series, but I was not paid for that. Sell advertisements. I have made a bit of money selling ads on this site, but honestly it has been very little.
That’s it. I am always looking for new ways to get money though. I wake up every morning and think, “How am I going to get some money today?”
I became ill 21 years ago and have not worked at a regular job since. If I did not have the trust, I would try for Disability. Before I got ill, I was always either working or in college or both. There was never a time when I was doing neither. If you enjoy the hard work that goes into this website, please consider a contribution to support the continuation of the site. Donations are the only thing that keep the site operating.
First Stark broadcast I have run in some time now.
This man Ray Harris is a true intellectual. Stark suggests that he also may be considered Alt Left, and I would agree with that.
A lot of interesting discussions going on here with a lot of it centering on nudity, social nudity, and our very nutty hangups about nudity. The Anglophone world is extremely uptight and Puritanical about social nudity in contrast to most of Europe. Germany and Spain in particular are quite wide open about this subject. There is also a lot about nude minors being portrayed in art. In recent years, the controversy has been mostly about naked teenage girls in movies.
Most of these movies were produced in Europe. Louis Malle’s Pretty Baby features a nude 12-year-old Brooke Shields. This clip is out there on the Internet for all to see because nudity is not necessarily child pornography. You can have all the pictures of naked kids all you want I guess.
Nudism sites certainly do, and they are all over the Net. They show humans including minors of all ages, wandering about in the nude on beaches, forests, etc. It’s honestly not very erotic, and the younger teenage girls are not as hot as you would think. They mostly appeared underdeveloped to me, and I wasn’t very into them. Of course the naked kids are not arousing at all, and I fail to understand why we flip out about this stuff. I mean, I can’t think of anything less interesting than a naked kid of either gender. So why do we have a heart attack every time we see one!? I mean it’s a naked human being. Is that evil or something? Color me mystified. What the Hell’s the matter with you hysterical Puritans anyway?
Of course I have seen the Pretty Baby clip, and I must say, I can’t see why anyone would be turned on by 12 year old Brooke naked in her shower. I watched it and I thought, “Lame,” and “Why would anyone get turned on by that?” Nevertheless, the hysteria rages on out of control, burning minds to a crisp all over the land.
There’s a long history of painting naked minors, especially females, and in centuries past, it was quite common to paint young naked children. I believe Harris says it’s not done much anymore because artists are too paranoid.
The work of photographers Jock Sturges, David Hamilton, and Bill Henson is gone over. These are modern photographers whose work focuses on naked teenage girls.
Henson likes them real young, like age 13. I’ve seen some of that, and it’s not a turn-on at all. In fact, it’s a huge turnoff. You want to look away because you are thinking a girl that young is too young to be sexualized. It’s not erotic to me in the slightest. Instead it is shocking and weird. They have no bodies at all, no tits to speak of, their bodies look like boys’ bodies (I call females like that “sticks”), and at this point of my life, they really look like little girls. They’re not little girls anymore, but they look like they are.
I think we need laws to keep men and 13 year old girls from having sex. These girls need to be protected from us men, and we men need to be protected from ourselves. It would not be right for this to be legal. That’s practically a little girl.
Hamilton and I think Sturges focus on teenage girls, so that’s a lot more promising. Hamilton’s shots are in outdoor locations, often in groups. The photography is spectacular, and the girls are very beautiful.
On the other hand, at least Hamilton focuses like Henson on young teenage girls. I think most of those girls are 13-15, but correct me if I am wrong. I would have to loved to have looked at them earlier in adulthood because girls that age turned me on a lot more when I was younger like 18-30, but at my age, they just seem too young. It’s too much of a young girl. They’re not even much of a turn-on. Physically they are somewhat of course, but then they seem like too much of a young girl, and they are so underdeveloped and girlish, and that part of it is a turnoff and wipes out the physical part.
I know they are not little girls, but even 16 year old girls are starting to seem like little girls to me now. They are perfectly developed, but it just seems like way too much of a girl, and they seem very immature. I see them, and I think they are in junior high. I figure they are in 7th or 8th grade. I ask them if they are in junior high, and they get offended. Anyway, yes, I have seen Hamilton’s stuff and it is all over the Net if you want to go looking for it, and I assure you that it is all 100% legal. After all, nudity is not child porn. I’ve already seen it, and I have no desire to go looking for it again.
I forget Sturgis’ focus, but I think it was young teenage girls also.
I also worry about these men. What’s with the obsession with 13-15 year old teenage girls? I don’t get it. Sometimes I wonder if these guys’ sexual interests are completely OK. It’s not normal to be obsessed with young teenage girls. You are getting into hebephile territory, and hebephiles are not normal.
This subject has aroused some of the worst lies and libels about me of all. I have tried to address these lies, but I just dig the hole deeper. This is all based on some retarded thinking that people of normal intelligence always engage in. It’s called, “If you write about it, then you do it,” or “If you write about it, then you are one.” There’s also, “If you talk about it, then you do it,” and “If you talk about it, then you are one.” All of these are logical fallacies. Take this arguments to your Logic professor and see what he says.
These are examples of very stupid ways of thinking and almost 100% of the population with average intelligence thinks like this all the time. Now you see why people like me think people of average intelligence are retarded.
The Robert Lindsay Brush Fire about this matter was set off long ago. The fire is 0% controlled and is expected to rage into the foreseeable future. As long as that’s the case, I figure I will pour gasoline on the flames and sit back and watch the devastation. It’s rather entertaining to be a social arsonist. If you can’t beat em, join em.
Robert Stark Interviews Author Ray Harris
Robert Stark and co-host Pilleater interview writer Ray Harris. He is based out of Australia and is the author of Paradise Reclaimed which is available on e-book. Link here.
Ray’s science fiction novel Paradise Reclaimed about the story of the first interstellar colony.
Warnings about dystopia on Earth and creating a utopia from scratch.
Transhumanism, the idea of both genetic and social engineering, CRISPR Gene Editing, and the influence of Julian and Aldous Huxley. Ecotopia, Solar Punk, Soleri’s Arcosanti, and combining the primitive and futuristic.
How we have the technology to advance civilization, but corporate and political corruption stands in the way.
Aldous Huxley’s Novel Island.
The upcoming sequel to the book The Golden City about the colonists returning to Earth after being isolated.
Social nudity, it’s place in the book’s space colony, and whether our aversion to it is rational.
The historic of social nudity, attitudes in Europe and Japan, and the Freikörperkultur Movement in Germany.
Different cultural attitudes towards sex in America, Europe, and Japan.
Developmental vs. chronological age.
The history of attitudes towards sexuality in the West, age of consent laws, and how they affected the arts.
Nudity in art; French Rococo painter François Boucher’s Leda and the Swan; works by Edgar Degas, Vincent van Gogh, and Jean-Honoré Fragonard.
Japanese Shunga art.
The debate about what is art and what is erotica.
Controversial nude photographers Bill Henson, Jock Sturges and David Hamilton.
The film Louis Malle’s Pretty Baby (1978), Eva Ionesco, and Natalie Portman in Léon: The Professional. If you enjoy the hard work that goes into this website, please consider a contribution to support the continuation of the site. Donations are the only thing that keep the site operating.
Here. Ann Sterzinger is a novelist stranded on the Alt Right for God knows what reason. Sort of a a case of, “What’s a nice girl like you doing in a place like that? I think a lot of folks, especially hipster and artistic types, are drifting around the Alt Right because they think it’s like the new hip bar in town where everyone goes to be seen. The Alt Right is hip, groovy and edgy and it’s great for the Permanently lost and those with late onset adolescent rebellion. You look at a lot of these hipster early adopter trendies over there and you think, “You’re a decent person. What the Hell are doing hanging around with all these damn Nazis?” Maybe they don’t know what they’re doing. Maybe they do. Maybe they’re on glue. Maybe they’re camped at the Lost and Found. Maybe it’s all Performance Art. Maybe who the Hell knows. Sometimes you just have to throw up your hands, shake your head and walk away. Ann is also part of some weird thing called the Anti-Natalism Movement. Anyway, this chick is an excellent writer, already having a few novels under her corset. She is also very, very smart. She used to have this shy nerdy girl look which was a bit attractive except it gets lost in a crowd too easily. One of those sorta cute faces that’s always fading into the wall, you know? Now she’s fixed herself up a lot for the dating market I guess, and she looks a lot better. She seems me one of those super-brainy, (perhaps painfully) shy, introverted young brunettes who is actually kind of hot but usually worries she is ugly and has an inferiority complex about the ditsy blonds. fearfully envies the blonds. In that case, she should have been born Jewish. She’s about 40 years old, except she wishes she was never born. Like most goodlooking youngish intellectual women, I believe she needs to go out with me. You’re welcome, honey. In the Sky (Dans le Ciel) was written by Octave Mirbeau in France in the 1890’s. Ann Sterzinger translated the first English edition published by Hopeless Books. It’s available on Amazon.
How Ann discovered the book from Pierre Michel, a French literary scholar specializing in the writer Octave Mirbeau.
How Mirbeau is best known for his book Diary of a Chambermaid but In the Sky was little known outside of France.
How Mirbeau was an anarchist and a Dreyfusard.
How Mirbeau was a major influence on Louis-Ferdinand Céline who shared his misanthropic outlook.
How Céline was marginalized for his support of the Vichy Regime, however he influenced many writers such as Jack Kerouac, John Dolan, Charles Bukowski, and Michel Houellebecq.
How the book reflects Mirbeau’s outlook towards life and society.
The main character X who is a depressed, misanthropic artist based on Vincent Van Gogh who Mirbeau knew.
The Narrator who discovers X’s manifesto after his death.
How X struggles to create his artistic vision.
X’s mentor, who loses his mind.
The post-Catholic concept of expressing spirituality through art.
How X struggles with sexual and romantic frustration, and when he finally meets a girl, he dumps her because she did not live up to his romantic ideals.
How the meaning of the title In the Sky involves both where X lives on top of a mountain where you can only see sky and a metaphor for being detached from society.
Mirbeau’s view on the family and how neurosis is passed down from parents to children.
How the book combines tragedy and comedy.
Matt Forney’s review Elliot Rodger Goes to Paris.
The genre “Loser Lit.”
Ann’s article Dead David Bowie, French Nationalists, Antinatalism, and the Meaning of Life.
David Bowie’s art & legacy.
Her article The Magical Bottomless Labor Pool which connects political themes to her book NVSQVAM. Why I’m Scared of Widows & Orphans. Applied Dysgenics. In Defense of Beta Females.
Ann’s upcoming science fiction dystopia novel Lyfe, which needs a publisher that specializes in science fiction.
I have gotten a lot of crap from my enemies for being on the Academia.edusite in the first place, but really anyone can join.
The following was posted by one of the reviewers in an Academia session by one of the leading lights of the Basque-Caucasian theory. As you can see, the mythological and multiple lines of genetic evidence are starting to pile up pretty nicely too. This is neat stuff if you are interested in the Basque-Caucasian link in addition to work going on into the remains of the Neolithic Farmers who were subsumed in the Indo-European waves. It turns out there is quite a bit left in different parts of Europe, especially in terms of Neolithic Farmer mythology.
From a discussion among academics and independent scholars on a paper on the Basque-Caucasian Theory in Historical Linguistics during a session in on Academia:
I am not a linguist but interested in the topic as it proposes a linguistic correlation between Caucasic languages and Basque, as it parallels my own current research on reconstructing European Paleolithic mythologies using ethnographic analogies constrained by on archaeogenetics and language macrofamily correlations.
Tuite (2006, 2004, 1998, 1997) has pointed out the hunter-gatherer beliefs and myth motifs shared across a ‘macro-Caucasic’ area to the Hindu Kush and into Western Europe. Basque deities Mari, Sugaar, and Ama Lurra and their associated mythologems have striking similarities to the macro-Caucasic hunter mythologies (not found in Finno-Ugric or Middle Eastern ancient mythologies.)
I am currently writing a paper identifying many examples of Southern/Western Gravettian art in Italy, Spain, southern France that appear to depict imagery only explicable by analogy to Macro-Caucasic religious myth and ritual.
With respect to mtDNA fossil genetics, three skeleton samples are from Paglicci Cave, Italy, ~25 cal BP: one is macro-N-mtDNA (homeland Caucasus/Caspian/Iran; currently highest frequencies Caucasus, Arabia), and two skeletons, RO/HV-mtDNA (homeland northern Middle East; currently highest frequencies, Basque, Syria, Gilaki, Daghestan).
During the later Magdalenian another diffusion occurs apparently by a similar route: HV4-mtDNA emerges in Belarus-Ukraine (~14±2 ka) and under Late Glacial Maximum HV4a (~13.5 ka) moves south and splits in the three refugia: southern Italy, southern Russia (HV4a1, ~10 ka), the Middle East (HV4a2, ~9 ka), and Basque area (HV4a1a, ~5 ka, suggesting full emergence of distinct Basque culture and language), (Gómez-Carballa, Olivieri et al 2012).
These studies further support the existence of a Macro-Basque-Caucasic mythological stratum as well as shared language substrate.
The cutting-edge liberal theory is that Basque (and some other odd far-flung languages) is part of the Caucasian language family. In other words, at one time, the Basques and the peoples of the Caucasus like Chechens were all one people.
What this probably represents is the ancient Neolithic farmers who covered Europe before the Indo-European invasion replaced almost all of the languages of Europe. All that is left is Basque and the peoples of the Caucasus. Everything in between got taken by IE except for some late movements by Uralic and Turkic speakers. Up in the north, the Lapp Uralic speakers are, like Basques, the last remains of the Neolithic farmers. The Sardinians also an ancient remaining group of these people, but their language has been surmounted recently by a Latinate tongue.
As it turns out, the Basques and Caucasians also share a number of cultural similarities. There are also some similar placenames. And there is some good genetic evidence connecting the Basques with the Caucasian speakers.
It’s all there, but the conservatives are balking, to put it mildly, about linking Basque with the Caucasian languages.
I have long believed in this theory.
I read a book over 20 years ago comparing Basque to the Caucasian languages and a few other distant tongues and thought the case was proved even via overkill by the book. And recent work is so super that one wonders why the conservatives are still winning. I feel that the link between Basque and the Caucasus languages is now proven to an obvious and detailed degree.
Great interview. Rabbit is now a regular co-host on Stark’s program, which is great because it gives the Alternative Left more publicity. Also it seems to imply that Stark himself is identifying as Alt Left! Yay! And maybe more of Stark’s guests will start identifying as Alt Left. Wow, looks like we could really start to grow a movement here. I have noticed that Stark’s guests have become more Third Positionists or even “Alt Left-like” in recent months. It’s a great trend!
Really cool interview with Rabbit. Rabbit and Stark discuss me in the last 10 minutes of the show. Rabbit says he thinks that I am afraid to take much of a stand on race because I am afraid of being called a racist. You know what? He is right! I do not want my Alt Left wing to be associated with any sort of real, hardcore racism at all. Forget it. On the other hand, race realism, cultural critique and just straight up honest talk about race is fine.
If it’s just SJW’s calling me racist, I don’t care because they call everyone racist who doesn’t buy the lunatic Cultural Left line on race. And the modern anti-racist movement can burn in Hell. That said, racism does exist and at some point, you are just being a flat out nasty, ugly racist. That sort of thing is wincingly repellent and unacceptable in my book.
Rabbit’s Alt Left wing is much bigger on race, especially being pro-White, than I am. Rabbit for all intents and purposes is some sort of a leftwing White nationalist, or at least he is not afraid to hobnob with such folks. That’s fine for him, but I am going to have to pass. I am not into primarily emphasizing race and I am not a White nationalist. If you are more into being Alt Left in a ore explicitly pro-White sense, then maybe you want to identify with Rabbit’s wing. Sadly, he does not have a comments section.
In his favor though, I will say that I think Rabbit is a brilliant thinker and a fine writer, and he’s doing something that has needed to be done for a long time.
To me, Alt Left means more left on economics and moderate on social issues (in between the insane Cultural Left and the regressive social conservatives). However, I would still accept people who are economically left and socially conservative. That actually describes a lot of the working class right there and we need to quite turning these people off and shoving them towards the Republican Party.
Rabbit blogs at AltLeft.com
Topics include: Filippo Tommaso Marinetti & Italian Futurism.
Marinetti’sManifesto of Futurism.
How Futurism emphasized speed, technology, youth, and violence, and objects such as the car, the aeroplane, and the industrial city.
How Hitler’s exhibition on “degenerate art” included Marinetti and other futurists’ work.
Italian Futurism’s connection to fascism and how that led to its marginalization.
How despite that, Italian Futurism had a major influence on culture, art, and architecture, including Cubism and Art Deco. Antonio Sant’Elia and his Futurist urban vision which inspired the films Metropolis and Blade Runner. Constantin von Hoffmeister’s National Futurism.
Guillaume Faye’s Archeofuturism.
Transhumanism. A Short Trip through the Long View.
But the USSR could live without the West for most of its years. There are no excuses for creativity and wisdom.
Cuba for example has great territory, good natural resources, not to mention they could manage population growth. There are so many things they could do. The only explanation for not doing is that the Communists are too stupid to think of it. It is very psychopathic to think about the well-being ‘of the people’ and scare away the most creative people (specially the problem-solvers) when they take power in a nation.
Zbigniew Brzezinski is right in saying that communism eliminated the creative classes via exile or extermination from the former Soviet Union.
The USSR’s innovations in weaponry were legendary.
I know someone who owned Soviet products, and he told me that they were very well made. He still had an excellent radio that lasted 40 years. They often produced good products that lasted a very long time.
Cuba has made tremendous innovations in agronomy and biotechnology.
Cuba has more agronomists per capita than any other nation. They have also made some dramatic innovations or organic farming lately.
Cuba is now a world leader in biotech.
Cuba made dramatic innovations in the mining and manufacture of nickel.
Cuba also made major innovations in the planting, harvest, and manufacture of sugar cane.
Cuba has the best educated population in Latin America.
Cuban medicine is some of the best in Latin America. In fact it is so good that very rightwing rich people from all over the continent have been flying there for years to have sensitive operations done that they did not trust their own native doctors to do.
Few Cubans were exiled. Some writers and maybe artists and musicians were.
Cuban art, cinema, and literature are now very good. Cuba has always had some of the most fantastic musicians on the continent.
Few dissidents have been killed, and none have been killed since 1970. Even now dissidents are mostly left alone. Last time I checked there were 250 dissident groups on the island. Most are very small.
At the moment, some of the most prominent dissidents are openly funded from abroad and go to the US to give anti-government speeches. They run their own blogs that publish every day and have a large following, mostly off the island.
The most famous one is a young woman with her own blog who gets written up a lot in the media. She is a drama queen. Recently she was carrying on and on about how horrible the system was because it was impossible to get Blu-Ray disks on the island. This is the sort of thing that she bitches about. She gets arrested from time to time, and they typically put her in jail for one or two days and then release her. What a monstrous dictatorship they have in Cuba!
The dissidents are very unpopular in the island and have almost no support. Most people want change but support the present government, especially after recent reforms.
This is the drawing for which Alain Soral was arrested. It appeared on the website of his organization, drawn by someone named Hugo. The drawing is a bit hard to figure out, but the tracks and building in the background are a World War 2 concentration camp where Jews were massacred and the train tracks leading to the camp. A woman stands on the track, dressed lewdly like a whore. She has Jewish stars of David over her breasts and holds coins in one hand.
Above the drawing it says: Pornographic Memorial. So instead of the memorial museums to the Holocaust that the Jews build in every city in the West, we have a memorial museum to pornography, money and the Jews.
The Jews represent money and porn. The drawing suggests that the Jews should build memorial museums to money and porn instead of the Holocaust.
That’s in pretty bad taste.
For one thing, it insults the memory of the Holocaust in which 6 million Jews were exterminated for no good reason. It ties the memory of the Holocaust in with money and porn, which it says the Jews are responsible for. So what we think of when we think of the Jews is money, porn and the Holocaust. That is sort of what I think of when I think of Jews, but I am not going to draw an insulting drawing to insult the memory of the dead and taint the martyrs with cheap, tawdry sex and easy money.
It’s not really Holocaust revisionism, but Soral and his crowd are very big on that too, so that may be in the back of their mind. But it definitely makes light of the Holocaust and cheapens and minimizes the horror of what happened.
All in all, a very sleazy, offensive and yes, antisemitic in the worst sense cartoon.
I don’t think people should go to jail for being antisemitic jackasses like this, but then the French have some bad memories that we don’t have. I generally object to all these crazy hate speech laws.
This city is afraid of me…I have seen its true face. The streets are extended gutters and the gutters are full of blood and when the drains finally scab over, all the vermin will drown. The accumulated filth of all their sex and murder will foam up about their waists and all the whores and politicians will look up and shout “Save us!”… and I’ll look down and whisper “No.” They had a choice, all of them. They could have followed in the footsteps of good men like my father or President Truman. Decent men who believed in a day’s work for a day’s pay. Instead they followed the droppings of lechers and communists and didn’t realize that the trail led over a precipice until it was too late. Don’t tell me they didn’t have a choice. Now the whole world stands on the brink, staring down into bloody Hell, all those liberals and intellectuals and smooth-talkers… and all of a sudden nobody can think of anything to say.
– Walter Joseph Kovacs/Rorschach
The painting above is called Portrait of Cecelia Gallerani. I am not sure if I have ever heard of it. Most people just know it as The Lady with the Ermine. Yet there really is something perfect about it. Perhaps the most astonishing aspect of the painting is the mustelid itself:
The hand shows an understanding of anatomical structure and a power of particularization none of Leonardo’s pupils possessed. But most convincing of all is the beast. The modelling of its head is a miracle; we can feel the structure of the skull, the quality of the skin, the lie of the fur. None but Leonardo could have conveyed its stoatish character, sleek, predatory, alert, yet with a kind of heraldic dignity.
After countless imitations and parodies, the Mona Lisa still transfixes us.
Better yet to see it outside of its bulletproof glass and artificial lights of its sunken well in the museum, moved to the pure sunlight:
How exquisitely lovely the Mona Lisa must have been when Vasari saw her; for of course his description of her fresh rosy colouring must be perfectly accurate. She is beautiful enough even now, heaven knows, if we could see her properly. Anyone who has had the privilege of seeing the Mona Lisa taken down, out of the deep well in which she hangs, and carried to the light will remember the wonderful transformation that takes place.
The presence that rises before one, so much larger and more majestic than one had imagined, is no longer a diver in deep seas. In the sunshine something of the warm life which Vasari admired comes back to her, and tinges her cheeks and lips, and we Lucy reading Leonardo can understand how he saw her as being primarily a masterpiece of naturalism.
Both quotes from Kenneth Clark, Leonardo de Vinci (1939), probably the best Da Vinci book of the past century.
A truly disturbing cartoon from a show that ran on MTV for a while. Delves a lot into psychological issue. The main character is a little girl named Julie. Frankly, this cartoon is pretty messed up.
You have from left to right: Sally Ramey, COT the Chicken of Truth, Matt Moneymaker, Shawn Evidence, Arla Williams, Robert Lindsay with Justin Smeja, Dave Paulides and his book, Melba Ketchum, Steven Streufert, Melissa Hovey, Sharon Lee, Tom Yamarone, myself drawing this circus, Michael Merchant, and Bob Gimlin with a dead Bigfoot on the floor hemorrhaging to death.
The items to look for on the table are a Bigfoot cast, Tammy Murray’s glass Squat-ch necklace, Shawn’s laptop (he’s blogging about this), a 6 pack of beer, bullets, Paulides book, a steak on a plate, microscope, Hovey’s infamous bigfoot picture, Sharon’s wine bottle, and this drawing being made.
Shocking news! “Dogman” is apparently real! Dr. Melba Ketchum team says Dogman is a separate entity from Bigfoot, apparently another species or subspecies. This is incredible news. A source inside the Ketchum camp have informed me that the Ketchum camp believes that Dogman is a separate entity from Bigfoot, either another species or subspecies. How they came to this conclusion, I have no idea.
Dogman looks somewhat different from Bigfoot and has longer hair and more of a snout-like nose as opposed to Patty’s more human nose. Some say that they are shorter, only about six feet tall.
Dogman apparently resides in the Central, Midwestern and Eastern US from the Southwest on up to Michigan, Minnesota, Wisconsin and Quebec and over to the Appalachians in Tennessee. In other words, the Bigfoots like Patty of the Northwest are one species or subspecies, and the ones in the Midwest like Dogman are another altogether.
I asked the source whether Ketchum herself believe that the Dogman was real (I know that members of her team do) and he said, “She must. If [name removed] said it, then it has to come from Melba.”
The question is how the Ketchum team determined that Dogman is actually a separate entity, a separate species or subspecies. The source did not know, but the obvious guess would be via DNA. On the other hand, he told me that there is a team working on gathering Dogman DNA for analysis.
The source also affirmed that the “Beast of Seven Chutes” is a good example of a Dogman. He also stated that information about the Dogman will not be in the upcoming Ketchum paper but may be in a later paper.
Scott Carpenter says that Dogmen are real in his research area in Tennessee. People blast him a lot for his unconvincing videos, but he does have a successful hair sample in with Ketchum’s study that tested presumptive for Bigfoot. Carpenter’s blog entry about Dogmen in Tennessee is here.
An example of how hoaxers are using the latest Bigfoot movies and photos to improve their hoaxes. Look at the photo below. It’s from a video by a special effects group that was released as a “real Bigfoot video.” It was so good that many were fooled. The huge back effect may have been created by stuffing some sort of bedding or pillowing in the back of the suit.
Now take a look at the Hovey photo.
To me it is clear that the makers of the Pacific Northwest hoax above based their hoax on a careful study of the Hovey photo which they attempted to recreate with their suit. This is what I meant in my previous post about hoaxers getting better. When you have special effects folks competing to see who can make the best Bigfoot hoax, things are getting serious. It must be some sort of a game with these guys.
Back story for Ontario GoPro and Temagami Bigfoot video and photos is terrible. According to a source, the people behind the GoPro video, someone named “Nikk” has told lie after lie upon being investigated and has proved himself to be one slippery fish.
Alarmingly, it was Nikk to told investigators about the Temagami photos. The elderly couple are named the Heiberts and they supposedly reside in Timmons, Ontario. However, extensive searches by investigators have failed to find anyone named Jeanne Heiberts in Timmons, Ontario or anywhere else for that matter. Investigators feel that the “Heiberts” probably do not even exist.
Other things about the story do not add up. There was snow on the ground at the time the Temagami photos were said to have been taken, but there is no snow in the photos. There is the bit about the helicopters circling the lake, apparently lifted from the narrative of the Ben Matine hoax. Although the photos have been Photoshopped, the creature has apparently not been shopped in. That means that it’s either a real Bigfoot or it’s a hoax.
Tim Ervick investigated the story but did not meet the couple in person. Instead, there was 6 weeks of extensive emailing back and forth. Investigators are worried that Ervick may have been taken for a ride on both the Temagami and GoPro photos and video.
So we are left with at best a case like the Harley Hoffman video of what looks like a real Bigfoot video but the back story is insane, or at worst an elaborate hoax. Very disappointing.
Stanley Dingle photos are fakes. He posted this on his Facebook wall.
Sorry to do this everyone, but I need to let you all know that the photo I posted recently is hoaxed. I may be a hoaxer, but I am also human. It was only intended as a joke, but unfortunately a lot of people believed it, something which I am feeling guilty about. This isn’t something I wanted. These are the beliefs of people, and I do not want them to have their hopes built up with false pictures.
I needed to inform everyone of this latest development because I will not be visiting the page anymore. The first photograph that I posted is also a fake. Facebook Find Bigfoot’s judgement about it being a person is right. The second, more recent photo is Photoshopped. I know you will think I am a horrible person for doing this, and I cannot make excuses. Sorry again. I cannot apologize enough to you all.
Well, at least he feels guilty. “Stanley Dingle” is also not an American. He’s either Canadian or a Brit. Probably a Brit, since Brits are notorious skeptics when it comes to Bigfoots. They just don’t believe in it. I am really getting tired of these hoaxers. They ruin it for everyone. It’s hoaxers who have turned the Bigfoot community into a hornet’s nest of raving assholes.
So much Bigfoot evidence has been hoaxed by scumbags that no one believes anything anymore. Any evidence we put up – videos, photos, DNA, footprints, stories, you name it – it all gets totally destroyed as a “hoax.” The reason people do this is because of all the hoaxing. So the hoaxers have wrecked it for everyone.
One thing is for sure. Even after Bigfoot is proven or a least a lot more proven than it is now, the hoaxing will go on and on until the day I die. And as the hoaxing flood continues, it will always be hard to sort out the real evidence from the bullshit and lies. Hoaxing isn’t funny. It’s not a joke. It sucks. It ruins everything, ruins it all, turns all of Bigfootery to complete and utter shit.
Doubts about the Ontario Bigfoot photo. The Ontario Bigfoot photo is very nice, but even nice photos can be faked as can be seen with the “Stanley Dingle” debacle above. This photo came from a video posted by purported Bigfoot hunters who no one has ever heard of. A screen capture was obtained from the video, which made the rounds. However, the actual video was very quickly deleted, which to be honest, is suspicious and confusing.
Erickson Project update – what do we know and how do we know it? There has been a lot of discussion about the Erickson Project lately. Yes, they have a video. Yes, it is or at least was in Hollywood being worked on. What’s being done with it? Mostly editing and fixing it up. How will it be released? Probably as a DVD or possibly as some sort of a documentary on TV on National Geographic or something of that sort.
Problem is that TV doesn’t pay crap for their stuff. Earlier this year, Erickson spoke to some Hollywood TV executives. They made him an offer that he thought was way too low, and he rejected it.
I would imagine that the most any Hollywood studio would offer for Erickson’s documentary would be $150,000. Problem is that Erickson reportedly spent $2 million to make his documentary.
He’s never going to get that money back any time soon, if at all. Even under the best circumstances with residuals for each reshowing of his footage, he might make the money back over 10 years if he was lucky. But it’s going to be hard to cut a deal like that. He will need to get a good Hollywood agent, and those can be expensive.
Is the Hollywood story true? Apparently it is. We know that Erickson has been talking to Hollywood people before, because Richard Stubstad went to a Hollywood studio with Erickson where they were talking about working on Erickson’s movie. It’s a great big Hollywood studio, the real deal. That incident occurred a couple of years ago. Whether it’s at the same studio or not is anyone’s guess.
How did Erickson get the money to have Hollywood work on his video considering reports of his dire financial straits? No one knows, but we do know that Erickson showed Wally Hersom his video early this year. Wally was very impressed and said there was no way the footage could have been hoaxed.
Soon afterwards, Erickson shows up in Hollywood with a huge wad of cash, and Hollywood is working on his flick. It stands to reason that Hersom gave Erickson some money to take his flick to Hollywood to have them work on it.
There are also rumors that Dr. Melba Ketchum put extreme pressure on Erickson to shut down his leakers. In return for shutting down his leakers, Hersom was to grant him a huge wad of cash to help ease his financial apocalypse. These are just speculations, and no one knows if this is true. I have no idea what Erickson’s financial situation is now, but a while back, he was already being sued by people who bought his properties at his development in Canada.
The stars of the Erickson video are of course the Kentucky animals. Footage includes that shot by the residents and also by Leila Hadj-Chikh and Dennis Pfohl. The greatest footage of all is of Matilda, the juvenile female Bigfoot who got pregnant in the course of the study. There is also excellent footage of the large male, and he is so huge that it will completely blow your mind.
Whether there is any other footage from any of Erickson’s other habituation sites is uncertain. There may or may not be. However, no video footage was obtained from the Carter Farm that Erickson bought.
It is rumored that experts have looked at Erickson’s video and were not impressed. This is not true. Bill Munns was asked to review video shot by the Crittenden, Kentucky owners that Erickson suspected was hoaxed. Munns affirmed that it was indeed hoaxed with a Chewbacca mask and Erickson refused to buy the video.
However, several other videos were shot by the same owners after the first hoaxed one, and these were shown to a variety of experts who all thought they were real. Unfortunately it is true that the best videos in Erickson’s documentary were shot by confirmed hoaxers, who at least hoaxed the first video they shot. Surely the skeptics will use this information to try to discredit all of the videos.
However, some of our best evidence has come from hoaxers – Randy Brisson, Paul Freeman, Ray Wallace, the list goes on and on. It’s pitiful but true.
All of my sources regarding the Erickson Project have dried up. It was always hard to get people to talk about anything to do with Erickson. The sources all like him a lot, but they are also afraid of him. Erickson made all of them swear to secrecy, so getting info about his project out of anyone was like pulling teeth. In recent days, Erickson was putting extreme pressure on my sources as suspected leakers, and the sources dried up.
Erickson is at least as secretive as Ketchum, and probably a lot more so. I have no relationship with the man whatsoever, and both he and his wife are very angry at me for writing anything about him and his project at all.
If you want to know how I know all of this stuff, guess what? I can’t tell you! I had sources about the Erickson Project, and a couple of them were pretty close to Erickson himself. Others were close to submitters to the Ketchum Project. All of them gave me information under orders of strict confidentiality. All I can tell you is that the best information came from people close to Erickson himself.
Facebook Find Bigfoot has a new book out about Sasquatch. Jake Barnes is a friend of mine, and I am sure he did a great job on this book.
Here is the trailer for it. Amazing new Bigfoot photo from Stanley Dingle. A new photo from Adirondacks State Park in New York by a guy named Stanley Dingle.
I have no idea who this guy is, but he has two new interesting photos up of what he says are Bigfoots. Does anybody know anything about him or his history? Does he have a history of hoaxing? He seems to have come onto the scene from out of nowhere. Some people think this photo is Photoshopped. I am not sure of that. But if that is a suit, it’s one of the best suits I have ever seen.
Here is what he wrote about it:
I returned to the area where I saw that mysterious animal and started to explore the area. After a few hours of wandering the area, I came to a brush covered hillside and saw this thing observing me. It was a much lighter color than the last animal I spotted with my son. It looked ape like, and I zoomed in and took a photo.
When it heard my camera sound, it backed into the brush, and I heard it crashing through the trees as it moved off. I think someone needs to get out here – at Adirondack state park.
Previously, he posted a very strange photo of a possible Bigfoot.
Here is what he wrote about it:
I’ve contacted the BFRO about this but have received no response. In February of this year, I was hiking with my son in Adirondack State Park. We were walking through quite thick brush when we came into a clearing. It was then that we noticed a dark shape crouched down near the tree line. At first we thought it was a bear, but as it started walking on all fours, I realized it was no bear and got a little spooked.
This thing was hairy, and I could see the muscle structure under the hair. My son was scared and urged us to leave. I quickly took out my cellphone and snapped a photo. It was then that this creature stood up on two legs and started to run the treeline bipedally. My son began to scream and panic, and so we hightailed it out of there.
I had no time to get any more photographs of the creature. We were truly terrified. I’ve never seen an animal run like this did on two legs. It could not have been a bear, as they cannot run like that. This thing walked on its knuckles when on all fours, like a gorilla. It then stood up like a man and ran, all hunched over.
One detail I noticed during the sighting was that it had something on its back, something hairy and grey. I got the impression that it was an infant. I have of course heard of Bigfoot, but I never believed such things, yet now I am sure that it must be this creature that we saw. I’m scared for people who go hiking up in that wilderness in case this creature is dangerous.
I feel sometimes people will think I am delusional. My wife thinks I am crazy in some way and will not believe that I photographed anything other than a bear. But I know what bears look like. This was no bear. I have attached the first photograph for your consideration.
Well, juveniles run and walk a lot on all fours, but the adults do too sometimes. If it had a baby on its back, it would have been an adult for sure. New photo of Dr. Melba Ketchum. I found what seems to be a recent photo of Ketchum on the web. I have no comment on this photo except that she looks quite young. For some reason, I thought it was a photo of a teenage girl!
Possible reason for delays in Ketchum DNA project. I just spoke to someone who is in contact with people close to the Ketchum Project who told me that part of the reason for the delays is that Ketchum is being pressured by the government and the timber industry to drop the study. I don’t know how reliable this source is, but I am just passing this information on.
Why I released the Sierra Kills drawings and photo. The release of the artistic drafts of the two Bigfoots from the Sierra Kills and the photo of a hide skinned from the Bigfoot steak from the same Kills has caused a lot of controversy. A lot of people are saying that I didn’t have permission to release them.
One of the main problems is that I don’t even know who the copyright holder is on the drawings and the photo. If I don’t know who these people are, how can I contact them to ask them if I can post their stuff? It’s impossible.
The drawings and the photo or photos have been floating around the higher echelons of the Bigfoot community for a long time now. I have had them for two months.
I got them from someone along with the drawing of the head of the male Bigfoot from the Kills. My source gave me permission to post the head of the male, but soon after, I lost touch with them. I sent them multiple emails for two months trying to get ahold of them, but they had dropped off the face of the Earth. Apparently they have cut off all contact with me.
Now I have a problem. I have an agreement not to publish via someone who has stopped speaking to me. I honor agreements with folks who stay in contact with me. I tear up agreements with folks who quit talking to me. Since he quit talking to me, I felt I was no longer bound by our agreement. My agreement to publish or not was with the source, not the copyright holders, whoever they may be.
There’s a problem here. I am a journalist. We believe that information wants to be free. We pretty much want to publish just about everything unless there is some privacy reason not to.
We believe in the public’s right to know. We don’t believe in withholding valuable information from the public. What the public has a right to know is a very controversial matter, and I’m not sure the public needs to know about everyone’s private lives. But information like I published is the sort of thing that the Bigfoot community has a right to know.
I don’t believe in creating works of important art and then sticking them in your drawer forever so no one can see them. These are important graphics, and the Bigfoot community has a right to see them. They do not deserve to be shoved into a drawer somewhere where none of us can ever see them. There’s way too much information withheld from us already.
There have been some loud complaints from folks saying that I have no right to publish these items. Some are coming from folks who are in deep with the Ketchum Project and others are coming from folks in deep with the Erickson Project. Two groups shrouded in secrecy who have been withholding stuff from us forever. Compare the hide from the Bigfoot steak (Shall we call it the Bigfoot hide?) to other photos of Bigfoot hair. It would be nice if someone could put these together into some sort of a montage. All of these hair samples have tested positive as Bigfoot by DNA.
Here is the huge post that we promised earlier. This post will contain a few world exclusives, photos and drawings published for the first time ever in Bigfoot history. The post will contain three graphics, 2 drawings and 1 photo. They are: 1. A full body drawing of the adult Bigfoot from the Justin Smeja Sierra Kills incident. This is the first full body drawing ever of a “confirmed by DNA evidence” Bigfoot. 2. A drawing of the head of the juvenile Bigfoot from the same incident. This one has a lot going for it because Smeja cradled the dying Bigfoot in his arms for a minute or two as it died, so he got a good look at it. In addition, in the 10-15 minutes prior, the juvenile and its sibling had trailed Smeja and his partner into the woods off and on.
In terms of detail, this is the best drawing of a juvenile Bigfoot the world has ever seen. It is also the first drawing of a juvenile Bigfoot by someone by a human who actually had long physical contact with the creature. 3. A photograph of a portion of the actual Bigfoot steak, or slice of Bigfoot, from the same incident. This is the first photograph ever of a slice of actual “confirmed by DNA” Bigfoot tissue.
This is not actually a photo of the steak itself. Instead, it is a photo of a piece of Bigfoot hide sliced off the steak. The hide has been defleshed with a knife. In this process, sometimes bits of flesh or fat from the meat below can be seen in the hide. If you look at the upper portion of the photo, you can see a bit of white fat in the hide. This is fat from the flesh that was below the hide. There is a curious portion of the hide in the lower left that looks like blood or bloody flesh.
The photos below must be reproduced with the watermark on them. Although I don’t know who exactly holds the real copyright on these graphics, I am copyrighting them for now with my own copyright as a sort of placeholder for the true copyright owners. I am not trying to steal the copyright from the real holders or anything like that. I am mostly concerned with people trying to steal the graphics and copyright them themselves, and that is what I am trying to prevent with the placeholder copyright.
The true copyright holders are free to contact me at any time regarding these graphics.
There was an ethical issue about publishing these graphics. I have held onto them for a few months now and was holding off publishing them. However, the way I see it is I now have a green light to publish, and I am no longer prevented from doing so by ethical concerns.
What is up with Melba Ketchum’s DNA study? No one knows. She took her Facebook page down, but that has nothing to do with the study. People were speculating that she took it down due to the impending publication of the study. That’s not correct. Instead, she took it down because it was attracting too many imposters and trolls and she didn’t have time to answer questions anymore.
When will the study publish? No one seems to know. Ketchum recently said it will be out within the year. It is indeed at a journal, and that journal is a major journal, a huge journal. The journal has a big reputation to uphold, and they have a lot at stake in publishing such a wild article as this. In other words, if the science is bad, it could make the journal look pretty bad. So the reviewers want the article to be as perfect as possible so it will nothing will come back to haunt them later. They are always asking for more changes, even little changes. They have sent back requests for rewrites of as few as a 2-3 paragraphs or as little as a single paragraph. Ketchum recently had to do another small rewrite.
I honestly don’t know when the study will publish, if ever. I am tired of waiting and I am very cynical about this study by now. Olympic Project gives Bigfoot samples to Dr. Jeff Meldrum for alternate DNA study. There is an alternate DNA study that is being done by Brian Sykes of Oxford University. Meldrum was the one who got him interested in it. I bet this study publishes before Ketchum’s does. The OP recently gave this study a hair sample of possible Bigfoot hair that they collected lately. See a statue based on the Bigfoot Derek Randles saw. In 1985, on the Olympic National Forest, Randles saw a Bigfoot for a few seconds. They were off trail hiking when something began throwing rocks at them, not trying to hit them, but instead throwing rocks near them. Finally they glimpsed the thing just before sunset. It was so huge and frightening that Randles and his company took off running away from it as fast as they can. Photo here. Ketchum DNA project wants you to know Bigfoots are dangerous. People within the project have been trying to prepare the public for the release of the paper with a number of press releases about Bigfoots. The Ketchum team believes that Bigfoots are potentially very dangerous, and some can attack or even kill you. After the paper publishes, the team expects there to be a huge rush out to the woods by folks hoping to contact, capture or kill a Bigfoot. The team wants to warn people away from this by pointing out that these creatures are potentially very dangerous. Ketchum team preparing press releases about Bigfoots. They started preparing these about 6 weeks ago, if I am not mistaken. They have a small team that has been working on them. So you can see that the Ketchum team really does believe that they are going to publish something, and probably pretty soon, if they are preparing these releases. Ketchum’s travel itinerary. If you go to her Facebook page, you can see that Ketchum has been traveling all over the globe lately. There are complaints in the Bigfoot world by some who think that she is taking advantage of Wally Hersom, her main funder. The accusations are that she and her allies are “treating him like an ATM,” and “bleeding him dry.”
It’s been 40 years since the Allman Brothers Band released their album Eat a Peach. In celebration the band has named 2012 “The Year of the Peach.”
This is also the year they’re going to be given the Grammy Lifetime Achievement Award, which, according to the Recording Academy, “honors performers who have made contributions of outstanding artistic significance to the field of recording.” (I know some people are cynical about the Grammys, but I can’t be cynical about the Allman Brothers Band – and there are too many people who are the same.) Eat a Peach is a double album that was recorded after what critics call the group’s “breakthrough” album, At Fillmore East, and contains live tracks that didn’t make it onto that album, including “One Way Out,” a blues song that the Allman Brothers made popular with rock audiences. The Allmans knew blues music, and had been playing it from the time they began forming bands in the early 1960s.
After making it to Southern California where they opened for acts like The Doors and Buffalo Springfield, the Allmans moved back South, to Macon, Georgia. That’s where they began to put together the group of players who would join them in forming the Allman Brothers Band: guitarist Dickey Betts, bassist Berry Oakley, and drummers Butch Trucks and Jai Johanny Johanson – a Black drummer who had started out in R&B and had toured with such acts as Otis Redding and Sam & Dave.
According to one chronicler:
At the same time, Duane Allman began doing session work at the Muscle Shoals studio in Alabama, where this skinny White hippie quickly earned a reputation as a stinging, soulful accompanist. Duane and Gregg both exhibited a natural feel for Black music that the much-hyped British “blues masters” of the period couldn’t begin to match.
Growing up in the South, they absorbed gutbucket R&B and sanctified gospel along with the more common influences of soul and freedom jazz and came up with an unprecedented sound…
It was a sound that combined “deeply Southern” strains of music – blues, country, and gospel – with rock and roll. Some called it New South.
Critics and fans love Eat a Peach, but the album cover art is famous, too. The album cover includes a gatefold mural featuring a “fantasy landscape of mushrooms and fairies and folklore,” as described by one writer. It is the work of brothers James Flournoy Holmes and David Powell, from Spartanburg, South Carolina.
The brothers were in their early twenties when they went into the graphic design business. James had a fine arts degree from the University of Georgia; David was a photographer and businessman who had a degree in sociology from Limestone College in Gaffney, South Carolina. Their association with the Allman Brothers began, according to a Billboard piece written back in May of 1974, after the band played in Spartanburg, noted the brothers’ talents, and asked them to do an album cover for their Capricorn release. Eat a Peach was among the album covers displayed in an exhibit of J. F. Holmes’ cover art that ran a couple of years ago at Spruill Gallery in Atlanta. Bo Emerson wrote about Holmes and some of the bands he did work for (like the very first cover he did, for Wet Willie), groups on the Capricorn label and elsewhere – like Charlie Daniels and the Marshall Tucker Band.
“He would maybe take the feeling that the band gave you musically and develop it into something that you could get by looking at the album cover,” says Dick Wooley, who was vice president of promotion at Capricorn during the 1970s. “A lot of the bands didn’t have an identity, and he’d come up with something.”
Holmes was talented in watercolor, airbrush, and ink and pen, said Emerson, and his style depended on the music inside.
The clear, spare rendering of the postcard joke on the front of Eat a Peach ( a flatbed hauling a house-sized piece of fruit) contrasts with the crowded, trippy landscape on the gatefold interior, with its mushrooms, dragons, and grotesque figures that he says, “I stole, sorry, ‘borrowed,’ from [Hieronymus] Bosch.”
All of Eat a Peach – the music and the cover art – came from the imagination, skill, and artistry of Southerners. David Quantick calls this album the work of “Southern rock” pioneers at their creative peak.
But Gregg Allman has often been quoted as saying:
Well, to say “Southern rock” is kind of redundant, isn’t it? It’s like saying “Rock Rock.”
This is because, as Swampland puts it, rock and roll and all of its precedents – blues, gospel, jazz, country, bluegrass – are products of the American South.
I find the comparisons HBD enthusiasts (like Steve Sailer) make between Mexicans and blacks pretty interesting. Many of them seem to regard mestizos as somewhat more intelligent and docile than blacks, though not nearly as bright as whites. On the other hand, they often view Afro-descended people as being much more charismatic and creative than Mexicans.
There may be some truth to this latter observation. Non-Hispanic black and biracial celebrities and other prominent figures seem to vastly outnumber noteworthy individuals of Hispanic origin, despite the Hispanic population being larger.
Even among Hispanics, there appear to be a greater number of famous mulattoes (i.e. from Puerto Rico, the Dominican Republic, or Cuba) than famous mestizos. The only famous Mexican Americans I can think of off the top of my head are Salma Hayek (half Lebanese) and George Lopez.
The first paragraph is correct. That they are somewhat more intelligent and much more docile than Blacks, but much less so than Whites, is due to the Indian in them. Hispanics commit 3X as much crime as Whites. That’s a lot! But Blacks commit 8X more crime than Whites. That’s a lot more! In order not to be White supremacists here, we must point out that Whites commit 4-5X as much crime as Asians. That’s a lot! In an Asian society with a large White minority, Whites may well be the “niggers” of society.
This may come back to extroversion. That Blacks are the most extroverted race of all and also commit the most crime may not be an accident. Extroverted people simply express their energy directed outwards at the world in all sorts of ways, good and bad.
We introverts just move it all inwards. Most of us simply don’t even have enough outward directed energy period left over from the inward flood to commit much crime. Hell, we have a hard enough time raising our voices.
When someone has an argument with me, I often feel bad for days afterwards. The extrovert feels bad for 10 minutes, at 12-24 hours. After that, it’s, “What argument?” With me, I have a bad fight with someone, don’t see them for three years. They’re all, “Hi there!” I’m like, “You fucker. I still remember that shitty fight from three years ago! Give me 10 good reasons why I should trust you now? Or 2? Or 1?”
Pure introverts might commit 5% of all crime, if that.
Most criminals are extroverts. Everyone knows that. If prisoners were introverted, they’d behave better and we could have Hilton San Quintins with few to no problems.
Same with the relative lack of extroverted creativity in Hispanics. Blacks have much more of this than Indians. The Indian can be creative, especially in art, as in painting. These are the introverted or visual arts. The more expressive arts, the performance arts, will favor the more extroverted Blacks.
Blacks are better at music too. Black poetry has a rapping, jazz and blues like, rapid pace to it. It can be very high quality, but mostly when read aloud. On the page it suffers. Black poetry is meant to be noisy.
Art is a jealous mistress, and if a man have a genius for painting, poetry, music, architecture, or philosophy, he makes a bad husband and an ill provider.
Fished this out of my spambox. Somebody important said that, hopefully, or else spammers are more talented than I ever thought.
But of course it’s true.
Artists and genius types make lousy husbands. The real world examples and many and well documented.
Their problem is not just their narcissism, and all artists are narcissists. If you don’t think your shit doesn’t stink, why else would you think that anyone else on Earth would possibly want to read your crap, listen to your bullshit, look at your scribblings and mudpiles, inhabit your Lego brick structures, or read your impenetrable jerkoff effluvia laughably called “philosophy” or the study of the meaning of life (Of all the pretentious disciplines, LOL)?
Obviously, no one would possibly want to pay much attention to anyone’s artistic jerkoffs of this or that narcissistic folly. Unless, that is. Unless you are the greatest fucking writer, artist, musician, architect, philosopher, etc. on the face of the Earth. Then they will line up to subject themselves to your dribblings, blabberings and jammings.
Of course we arty types all think we are great. If we didn’t think we were great, we would not exist. Of course that is why we are insufferable. If we spent our time being normal humans, we’d scarcely produce a thing. Duh.
Imagine something else, if you dare. Imagine a world where everyone is an artist of some type or another. You’re now living in the part of Los Angeles right around Hollywood. I know because I lived there. Supposedly Manhattan is like this too.
It’s actually a drag. Hollywood sucks because if “all you do” is go to work every day like a normal human being, you’re treated as if you are disabled. Everyone’s a shooting star, and 99% of them will fail. But everyone’s just got a day job, just for now. Their real job is screenwriter, director, singer-songwriter, actor, musician, writer, poet, artist, bla bla. 99% of them will fail, but no matter.
The truth about Hollywood is not usually stated. It’s not the land of runaways or stars. It’s the land of failed artists, musicians and writers; and to be one is more than to be normal, it’s a state of high achievement.
Hey, at least you tried. Unlike that loser in the cubicle next door! All he does is go to work every day!
Here is Brad Gooch, a gay novelist whose transgressive fiction deals in copious amounts of sex, violence and dope. The implication is that he has lived out a certain amount of what he writes about. What’s strange is that at age 57, presumably after years of promiscuity, drugs and booze, the guy looks fantastic. I would kill to look this great in 5 years.
Dennis Cooper is also a major author of transgressive fiction and also gay. He’s Gooch’s age, and he looks fantastic, other than the grey hair, which is to be expected at age 56.
I met Cooper once at a poetry reading in some weird Chinese bar in downtown LA in February 1982. Name anyone?
I also met a famous LA choreographer named Mary Jane Eisenberg at that show. She was just starting out and getting a bit famous. A dancer in the late 1970’s (she’s on a Captain Beefheart live album), by the early 80’s, she already had her own LA dance company putting on these really weird and outrageous punky dance routines.
She had her hair cut really short in a punk haircut. I can’t find any pics of her on the Net, but she should be 57 now too. At the time, she looked great! Skinny, smart, punk artsy Jewish chick, 29 years old. I was trying to figure out if she was lez since the lez cut their hair like punks, but she gave off some pretty straight vibes.
She had these two guys with her who were dancers in her company. They were both around 30 or so.
I can see why guys want to be gay! These were two of the best looking men on the planet! Charming, smart, polite, gorgeous, what more do you want?
Look, if you are a straight guy and you’re not rich, what are the chances that you will fuck the most beautiful women on the planet? How about on a regular basis? About zero.
But if you’re queer and hot, you can do it all the time! I also see why guys go bi a bit. I turned these guys down, but how many regular guys would not? I can also see why goodlooking narcissists of either sex go bi. So many opportunities, and they just want to fuck beautiful people! Gender, what’s a gender? As I’m driving home that night, I’m wishing I was a fag in a way.
For some weird reason, I got the feeling that they were bi, not gay. The one guy looked a lot like Jamie Gillis, the recently deceased porn star. His friend was Mr. Handsome! I’m not gay at all, but I can admire a goodlooking guy. Hell, some of them look almost as good as I do.
Eisenberg: So what have you two been up to lately?
Jamie Gillis Dude: (acting faggy but super-sexy too) Not much, just hanging around gay bars, ha ha.
Handsome Friend: “No, no, no, no, no.”
Eisenberg: (shakes her head like you guys are nuts)
Jamie Gillis Dude: Says a bunch more gay shit, at the same time he’s flirting with Eisenberg something heavy.
Handsome Friend: (Every time JGD says something gay) “No, no, no, no, no.”
Me: (thinking, trying to figure out these guys’ sexuality): Wow, one guy says they’ve been going to queer bars, and the other dude denies. Weird shit. They must be bi. Plus some of ultra-handsome gay guys do chicks too. The more of a male knockout you are, the more chicks could care less if you’re queer; they just want to bag the hot guy. Plus HF acts sort of straight, and JGD dude flirts with Eisenberg.
All of the lunatics in the LA punk scene are there, and most people are drunk and crazy. A locally famous gonzo rock journalist is right next to me. I can’t remember his name. I’m thinking, “This dude is famous!” I’m freaked out because famous people act so fuckin’ normal. I thought they acted different, like Superpeople. Cooper keeps looking at me. Then he says in a strange voice:
“Oh no! Someone said the word ‘impotence’!”
I’m thinking, “Whoa, I have major impotence anxiety at age 24, did this fucker just read my mind?”
Cooper is going to read some of his insane, doped up, violent, sex-crazed poetry.
Things start to settle down a bit.
HF leans over to me with his Heineken in one hand in a somewhat straight voice befitting a bi, “So, can I buy you a beer?” There’s a stretched-out, seductive tone to his voice, and I’m flipping.
I’m seriously freaked out. No guy has ever offered to buy me a beer before. I’m so terrified that I say, “No,” then back away from him.
I forget what happens after that. I think Cooper read some of his insane poetry. Every time he says, “Fucked him in the ass,” or “sucked his cock,” or some gay sex shit, the crowd goes insane, whooping and hollering like teenagers. These are adults, mind you! It’s faggy, but there’s something awesome about it. Do it in the streets!
I meet another guy later on in the evening. He’s 40, British expat living in LA, never has a woman with him, acts like a fag. I forget his name. I’ve never been able to figure out if the guy is a fag or not, but sometimes he puts his hands on me when he talks to me.
Mostly, the guy’s just a drunk. Every time I see him, he’s fuckin’ plastered, but he has one of the biggest hearts west of the Mississippi, so who cares about his liver? I ain’t his dock or his Mom. Anyway, without the booze, maybe he’s an asshole or a shut-in. Besides, the guy’s an artistic genius, designs album covers for bands. Artists have a right to be drunks, or dopers, or sexual degenerates, any such thing. God will forgive them. The muse ain’t free you know.
But his fag shit never goes further than hands on my shoulders. Anyway, half the male population of Hollywood act like faggots, and many of them are demonstrably not fully gay anyway. If a guy acts faggy in LA, it means nothing necessarily. That’s the LA way to act. Act like a faggot, whether you are one or not.
I point out Eisenberg. He knows her, suggests she’s single. “Great, go talk to her,” he says, winking.
The guy designs album covers. He’s getting famous. He just designed the Go-Go’s album cover and made a bundle. He describes the size of the bundle to me. He won’t have to work in a while, that’s for sure. Nice to be an artist type sometimes!
“What are you doing?” He asks.
“I’m thinking of going on unemployment,” I say.
It’s a great scam! Rockers are so un-Republican.
“Great!” He says with a huge smile. “I’m thinking of going on the dole too.”
And why not, eh? Art is a scam, life is a scam, death’s the biggest scam of them all, a scam on all of us. The Reaper doubles over as we gasp our last heave.
Below is a photo of the famous Holocaust and Middle East historian Norman Finkelstein. He’s 55 years old in this photo. He looks great.
There is talk on the Net about whether or not Finkelstein is gay. Apparently he’s not at all. This from an inside source who knows him well. But at age 55, he’s never married, so he may as well be gay. All these guys have made it through 5.5 decades without hitching up with a woman to make you fat, slow you down, and ultimately kill you. Maybe that’s the secret? Eternal bachelorhood?
Common denominator is all 2/3 of these guys are gay, and 3/3 of them have never married. They all looking fantastic at 55-above. Some have led pretty wild lives too. They’re all thin. They were all quite good looking as young men – I’m sure that has something to do with it. Anything else?
Your average straight guy at 55, no matter what he looked like at 20, looks like shit, let’s be honest here. Another thing is that no one in straight society cares. If you still look great past 50 and you’re male, no one cares. You don’t get any points.
The assumption is, hey, you’re 55, you look like shit, that’s normal. For one thing, past 50, most all us straight guys are fat.
Did you have sex at all in the past year? Can you still get it up without purple pills? Any major diseases yet? I know, my back hurts too, I hear ya. Let’s go find two 110-pound Oriental girls to walk on them! Your wife’s a bitch too? LOL, that deserves a drink! Waiter, two more, right here! Why don’t you divorce her? Oh Hell no, then I’ll be alone, and I never learned how to cook. I’ll get sick, and I won’t go to the doctor. I’ll start drinking and won’t stop til I’m dead.
My wife’s my new Mom. All us older married guys are Momma’s boys, you know that. Wifey traded places with Mom, that’s all. Same fucked up, wussy dependent sissyboy dynamics. You too huh? We’re not momma’s boys! We’re married men; we can’t be! Until you read the fine print. Other than the sex, my wife is my Mom too. Embarrassing! Testosterone injections please! Emergency!
How do gay and never married guys keep looking so great? Is it the emphasis on good looks in the gay community or in single society that keeps them in shape and trying their damndest to look good? I mean, in straight married society, you and your wife are beautiful and young, you get married, and in two years, you’ve both gained 20 pounds. In another 10-15 years, one or both of you looks like shit to boot. Neither sex demands that the spouse stays hot during marriage, though it ought to be written into most prenuptials.
What do these gays and bachelors know that staid married men don’t?