Our resident hebephile, bumface, posted this link to Belle Delle, a child star. She is beautiful but she looks like a little girl. She is somewhere between 10 and 11. They put sexy women’s clothes on her and fancy women’s makeup and she starts looking a lot better to me because she’s starting to look like a woman! Take the makeup off and put little girl clothes on her and she’s a little girl again, and they don’t get a second glance from me.
Then I read interviews with her, and she’s completely idiotic and talks like a little child. She talks like, well, a little girl! Because that’s exactly what she is. That was the most massive turnoff to me. For female minors, the more it looks like a woman, the more I want to look at it. The more it looks and acts like a girl, the more of a turnoff it is.
I don’t even like 13 year old girls because they have what I call “little girl faces.” 14 year old girls still have them, and I have met 15 year old girls who yet retain them.
My Mom said it is “baby fat.”
Basically a child’s face is fatty, and as a woman grows up, the fatty baby face of a girl increasingly hardens and becomes sharper. I looked at photos of beautiful women from 30-40, and I couldn’t see much fat in their faces. However, they did have very sharp-edged, striking, bony faces. Their facial bones were very prominent, and they were also very attractive.
One time I went to this show about hawks and owls. They had live hawks and owls there and some bird guy handling them. There was this little girl ~8 years old in the front row. Some little girls are beautiful of course, but I don’t see them as beautiful in a sexual way, more like the way you notice a boy or a man is very handsome. It’s something you often don’t even think about it until you actually ask yourself the question.
But I could not stop looking at that damned 8 year old girl! Then I finally figured it out. Her damned Mom had put woman’s makeup on her! It was very well-done and she was already a pretty little girl, but that damned makeup made her look like a woman, and I couldn’t stop looking at her!
I started to get very uncomfortable as part of me was arguing with myself telling myself to stop looking at the little girl and the other part of me kept looking at her. War in my head!
I was not thinking of her in a sexual way because I can’t conceive of doing anything sexual with a little girl that age, and in fact this is the first time I considered the question, and I must have seen her 20 years ago.
But there was an attraction about her and she had a “pull” that sort of pulled you towards her.
I sometimes feel that with very handsome men. They have this “pull” about them that seems to almost suck you right into their orbit, and your body feels like it is getting pulled towards them. I stop and think and realize I am attracted to this guy, but then I think if I want to do anything sexual with him, and I don’t even want to touch him. The thought of kissing him really grosses me out.
I don’t really like this feeling of being pulled towards very handsome men as I’m straight and it sets off my internal homophobia, which is quite pronounced. As in, I am very uncomfortable with the idea of doing anything remotely like that. It makes me uncomfortable in the same way that little girl was making me uncomfortable. Your body’s being pulled in a direction you don’t want it to go in.
I think attractive people in general just have a sort of “pull” about them that just makes you want to look at them and in a lot of cases, to keep on looking at them. And at times, it feels like an actual physical force pulling you towards the person.
It shows how important looks are. Life is a beauty contest. They have done studies. Good-looking kids are given better grades, and homely and less attractive kids are marked down by teachers. It may not even be conscious.
Life’s not fair. It’s pretty much a shitshow, kids.